Congratulations on 9 weeks!! 
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Another 9 weeks!!! Congrats 
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Day 13 checking in.
In some covid-sickness-weird-melatonin-induced dream, I dreamt that I drove to a store before 2 am to get a bottle of vodka. I couldnāt drink it in the dream, as I became lost on my way home.
How devious is that little critter sitting in my subconscious that always demands me a drink? Lmao. This is the second dream this week itās pulled me in with drinking in mind. Just so I would wake up thinking about it. Well, not today you slimy goof.
Almost 2 weeks!
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Ugggg melatonin always gives me the weirdest dreams. As if using dreams arenāt weird enough on their own lol
Best wishes on a speedy recovery
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Gāmorning yāall 
Iām grateful for my family. With all our quirks, we love each other and have a lot of fun together. Iām grateful most of them will be here today.
Iām grateful for boulder fields and Vibram soles, rock glaciers and turquoise lakes, Colorado wildflowers and wildlife, and beautiful people to share it all with.
Iām grateful for knowing when I quiet my mind, my soul will speak. Iām grateful for stillness and mindfulness. Iām grateful these practices bring me calm when Iām in stressful situations. Iām grateful to know I can hide out in my closet for a few minutes today if things become overwhelming. 
Iām grateful for the rain. Even if it brings us indoors today, our little spot on earth needs the moisture. Iām happy weāre getting it.
I hope yāall have a lovely day. 
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Iām grateful I saw Mindy at the top this morning.
@Mindymoo It made it quite easy to find the gratitude list. Thank you. Itās funny because I was just thinking about you in my Al-Anon readings this morning trying to decide if I should share something with ya. And there you are 
first person I see on TS this morning. Itās a good story. Iāll post it on a different thread. You take what you want and leave the rest.
Iām grateful I spent a whole lot of time with God this morning. Thinking about you all. Enjoying my time on my deck. Thinking I hope Moxie will get to the point where she can sit on her deck and tell us more gratitude of her life in Colorado and Chicklets 
and the San Juan Mountains. And Shaunda I just want to say Iām so sorry for your loss and I just knew Jason would come on and be able to share his experience with you. I cannot imagine yāallās pain. Iām grateful you felt comfortable sharing that on here with us 
And Maxie I cannot imagine your pain. I lived, although long distance, with my favorite sister who had MS and her pain was unbearable, and I was always there for her. Iām happy to have your back when I can. And Stella my twin. I donāt know where the hell sheās at but itās probably some beautiful part of the world up on her island. I imagine you having a great time. I hope your pain is manageable. And Brian. Youāre a pillar of strength what an honor knowing you on this journey and everything youāve overcome And Callie. You remind me of David and Goliath. How can this young girl slay such a huge demon at such a young age? Iām so jealous of your courage and strength. I wish I had that then. But I guess I wouldnāt be here with you all now. You always impress me. Iām grateful CJ got the help she needed the other night. At first I was sad I couldnāt be there to help you. But then I was so happy you came here because the light is always on here and someone will be here for you.
Iām grateful Franzi has been stopping by. Iām sorry you got to move again. That sucks! God willing Iāll be landing in Frankfurt on the 22, Iāll give you a shout out kid 
. Iāll keep an eye out for ya on my way to Strasbourg. Iām grateful for M to be back and Bootz. I love yāallās words. You guys have the best words. I always look forward to your shares. And I missed the dog girl so much. You too M. And Iām wondering what fruit or veg Bootz might be knitting a sweater for. Maybe little raspberry sweaters to keep them warm at night. Iām grateful for the new kids on the block @Lovelyoutlook and Mindy and @Piglet86 I need to call you Mary I canāt call you piglet. And @Barbtarbox I see you popping in this morning, and all the support you Rookies give us. For me itās like us old guys on here doing the ODAAT Slog and we get this wonderful youthful booster shot coming in off the bench. Itās much needed. For me anyway. We need you guys to helps us continue and grow and not be stagnant in our recovery. Iām grateful for you. And Pinky it seems like you are doing my gratitude list from back when I only had a few months sober and I was discovering all this new wonderful exciting stuff. What a pleasure it is for me to reread all that new exciting stuff we get to have.
Anywayā¦ā¦.Iām grateful I just sat here this morning with God and you guys and just grateful for how incredible this place is we got here, even though itās on line. Iām grateful I get to travel the world with you guys. Back to the mountains of Colorado and the Oregon coast or Cali or back to my favorite place in the world England. And beyond. I guess today. Iām just grateful for yāall. And the magic this place has brought me after 913 days. This TS magic works if you work it and you all are worth it.
And maybe someday we all get together on Moxieās deck in Colorado . That sounds like fun. 
I reckon if we did that, all weād see is her and her Jeep flying up a mountain to get away from all of us. 
I just love you guys.
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I was just going to edit Jason, My chapter 3 gentleman. But I see you already saw my post. So I want to give you a special shout out.
Thanks for all your wonderful contributions here.
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I am grateful for the beautiful week I spent with my aunt. I am grateful that my man friend fits right into my family, he feels so comfortable with us and I just love that. I am grateful that my daughter is willing to take some day trips with me this month, I miss her now that we havenāt been spending as much time doing school work together. Funny right? I couldnāt wait to be finished school but now it seems we barely have anything in common. Hopefully I will find some nice spots to take her. I am grateful for the day trip on the back of the motorcycle I took to Tofino yesterday. I am grateful for my open faced helmet as it allows me to smell all the wild flowers and the trees as we wound through the mountain pass. I am grateful for the black bear that was not spooked as we approached her, she casually munch on some skunk cabbage in the ditch. She was so close I could see how the mud had made defined peaks in the fur on her snout. Her nose moved in circles as she chewed, it was adorable. I am grateful for my new gear and the fact it keeps me so warm! The temperature changed without warning from one side of the island to the other and I was prepared. I am grateful for the beautiful food we shared, and the gifts I recieved. I am grateful the bike didnāt dump when we slidā¦ and that I was nervous afterwards. I am grateful I was nervous because before I never cared, it shows me that I value my life now and that is something so new and special to me. I am grateful that this weekend I was able to let go of a reservation that I have been hanging onto for many, many years. Slowly I am exposing my darkness to people that I trust and slowly I am letting parts of it fall away. I am grateful that there is more light to me than dark these days, I am very grateful for that.
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That was beautifully written MC. Can I call you MC, or do you prefer Mary, Mary Catherine? Or Piglet.
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I have a friend that called me Maxwell, but that name is really for my dog, Max.
Maxine, Maxie, either works. I will answer to anything. 
Thanks for asking!
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Itās a beautiful poem Miranda.
Thanks for the July 4th shout out! 
Enjoy your evening!!
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I truly love your post. Always so thoughtful. Thanks you for the shoutout it means a lot. This place has been me so much in the short time I have been here. Everyone has been so lovely. I love to follow along others journeys. Thereās lots to learn from the long time recovery individuals on here. Thank you all for your contributions. As you said this app works if you are willing to put in the work. Itās not easy and we certainly are rediscovering ourselves but thereās plenty of support here.
Much love to the ST fam
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On that note
I am grateful for this lovely Sunday.
Todays teaching really resonated with my journey.
I am thankful that through the word I am reminded I am on the right path
Grateful my children attended with me
Grateful to see family this afternoon
Grateful for fellowship
Grateful for you all
Have a wonderful Sunday everyone
ODAAT 
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So genuine and so beautifully written. God bless you and I hope your day is as wonderful as you are. 
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Must be that twin connectionā¦ You were right, I was and it is. Love you back
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Late in the day gratitudeā¦
Iām grateful to have woken up in my palās cabin yesterday morning, to the dog girl snoring close to my cot. To feel comfortable there, and also a desire to go home.
Iām grateful for the discomfort I felt on the way home. A chance to practice sitting with it, not letting it overtake me.
Iām grateful that the tough conversation I had last night, (video chat), went well. Tough. I was anxious before. Super thirsty. I set my intentions beforehand: kindness, compassion, honesty. Andā¦ gratitude.
Still, I had that moment. During it. Where I saw myself going to āwash my carā afterwards - at the 24hr carwash conveniently located beside the open-til-2am-liquor store.
I had the conversation. Probably my first break-up since high school, I guess, where I wasnāt on the sauce before/after/during? (And the high school event was more of a break-up note situation while rage-chewing a whole pack oā hubbabubba.) Totally different dynamic. Hard for sure. But clean. Cleaner, than it could have been. Blameless. Hoping I left another better than when I found them? I dunno. But Iām learning to not take responsibility for what is not mine.
Instead of the carwash, I had a moment, after, on my wee garden patio, watching the sky while the mosquitos fed on me, then a bath. And then bed.
Iām grateful for today. Today has been a good day. Home stuff. Groceries. Getting ready for my week. Tending to my little garden. Tending to my soul.
@Shaunda sending love to you. grief is hard, but thereās really no other wayā¦ and, I think, no other greater act of love.
@KellyKelly soo good to see you! and, yeah, I want one of those (gf) (af!) breakfast bowls.
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Iām grateful you made it through that sober. I hope the cabin stay helped to soothe you a bit.
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Friend! Iād be grateful to know how youāre doing. Grateful for you and your place in my journey.
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I am grateful I sleep better these days. I cannot say long and surely not sleeping in but until 5:30 am is already an improvement.
I am grateful that my mother come along quite well this time.
I am grateful we had a wonderful evening last night at the Rocky Horror Show.
I am grateful to be sober.
I am grateful I havenāt planned things during my stay here. Weāve been to the museum yesterday as well. Watching landscapes is calming.
Many great dutch artists there.
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Iām grateful to God thank you for guiding me through another day clean and sober. Iām grateful for recovery, especially mine, it is my most valued possession. Iām grateful for All my family, friends, TS and the gratidudes. Iām grateful to be posting and to be caught up on all your gratitude as I missed almost two days here, which is quite rare, I didnāt like it. Iām grateful that I can admit I am sad that I had to put up a boundary and stop seeing my lady friend and her dog. Iām grateful I donāt allow people to waste my precious time and energy(for too long, everyone deserves a little grace) I am a busy man between recovery, family, friends, work and school. Iām grateful that drugging, drinking, smoking or gambling are no longer an option or rarely even a thought when life gets stressful, busy, demanding. Iām grateful that I can admit that I feel dissapointed in myself for placing unhealthy expectations on me and others far to often. Iām grateful for the people who contact me (speaking of expectations) as I really have felt like I am constantly the one putting in the effort to maintain the majority of my relationships. Iām grateful to have finished four full days since starting at the sea doo and boat rental job, last weekend. Iām grateful my sunburn is feeling better tonight as it was hard to sleep the night before. Iām grateful I am in better shape physically than I thought, getting out and golfing, swimming and working as a labourer at the aforementioned watersports store has shown me alot of my fears regarding my back strength and pain where unfounded, as long as I am vigilant at working smarter and safer not harder. Iām grateful I am staying at one of my new bosses rental cottages tonight for free as it is empty. I am grateful he says I can stay almost anytime one is empty, very nice of him. Iām grateful the beach is only a two minute stroll away and I sat there against a tree stareing at the multitude of stars at 11p.m. just listening to the water. Iām grateful for music and creativity. Iām grateful for the twelve steps. Iām grateful for daily readings, prayers and gratitude. Iām grateful for my homegroup. Iām grateful I was invited to a recovery bbq and volleyball game this afternoon, I couldnāt attend as I was working but was grateful to be invited. Iām grateful that admist the chaos of a still happening long weekend working on a busy beach watching people drink and drug, road rage and argue, my co-workers included, arguing with customers, I stay pretty calm and collected and remember when that was me and I donāt ever have to go back to allowing substances or people to ruin my human experiences.
God bless you all. 
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p.s. You are doing a fantastic job, I believe in you. Ya You!!
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