@ThePower Congrats on 17 days sober and on completing the half marathon distance. Big accomplishments! I have found (through personal experience) that any time I have seen somebody that has to TRY and moderate, they can’t. People who are moderate drinkers probably aren’t alcoholics. I tried to be a moderate drinker many times and failed each and every time. I quit for 30, 60, 90 days to try and “recover” and “reset my system”. But instead of enjoying a drink, I would spend the entire time thinking about the next one and the next one and the next one.
And I wasn’t just a fat, lazy drunk. In my early 40’s, I completed several half marathons and 2 half ironman races. Celebrated each success by getting blackout drunk. And alcohol actually forced me to stop doing them. Trust me… choose fitness over drinking. You have one in your life at the expense of the other.
I can relate to so much of this. I was in a similar situation last night with hubby’s family questioning me as well. As do my friends. Then I question myself.
I don’t know how to quote another post on here, but I’ll try. You typed this, and this is one of the biggest things I’ve learned on here “I am so grateful for that I noticed it is time to stop before the actual damage was done”
When I think, “I’m not that bad, I can moderate”, I have to take a step back and ask myself WHY I need to moderate myself, why I need to buy small bottles, how it is a progressive disease, how I have seen (and am currently seeing) it consume & destroy my father.
Thanks for sharing your story. Sending hugs PS, always feel free to message me if you need to chat
Thanks for sharing Kairi.
We are bound to get these thoughts, especially when people are trying to convince us.
This is where they don’t have a understanding of our disease.
They think of alcoholics as down and outs who can’t stop drinking. They don’t see the people like us in recovery, and the only reason we are in recovery is because we don’t drink.
Well done for reaching out. It doesn’t matter where you went, you didn’t pick up and you talked to someone.
@keiti and @Salty. I think any alcoholic that HASN’T hit rock bottom is going to hear that. If someone completely destroys their life with alcohol then people get the fact that they shouldn’t drink. But for those of us that were “functioning” alcoholics and hid it well, people will question it. They don’t know the internal struggle we have.
Try to take what they say as a positive. You didn’t have to hit rock bottom and leave your life in shambles to realize you have a problem. You both are fabulous moms with beautiful kiddos and you’re on the right path. Keep up the great work… stay strong and stay sober!
Good night peeps. What a day it was…
Tiring, fun, annoying, wet (soaked in a rainstorm), social, emotional, everything god damn it. Could i get a very boring tuesday please? Higher power?
Hi friends! Busy day… crappy day at work (nothing major, just meh!), just got home from my daughter’s high school soccer game (1-1 tie) and now watching baseball and eating some strawberry shortcake. Hope you are all doing great. Stay strong, stay sober! Off to bed at 9:30pm.
Heyo. Feeling out of steam, I’m even out of exclamation marks for today. A depression wave has been creeping up for maybe 3-4 days now, and I’m feeling it more now. I think it’s natural fluctuation and not a progressive trend, but I hope it lifts soon. Making another trip this week to see family and go to appointments, so maybe the change of scenery will be good. Tomorrow I trap myself in a wheeled box for a couple of hours and hope I survive, my favourite thing
Kairi, I was thinking about your share yesterday and this morning. These are important realisations. I only really started to accept my alcoholism in sobriety and even then, my mind likes to play tricks on me. That is the nature of this thing. You are doing marvelously, my friend
And I can’t even believe you have 3x5 year olds - what a handful!!!
Let’s ride the wave together James. Alone is just that. I need to go out and do stuff and I will right now. Meeting and work up ahead. Some things to do at least. Hoping for and working on better times friend.
need coffeeeeee
PS, always feel free to message me if you need to chat 
