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this sounds like a serious danger zone for relapse 
The feeling is mutual, all of you guys are so important to me, I love this thread it makes me smile everyday. Its not often in life you find a place where you can be yourself 100% and always be greeted with such love and support and lots of laughs thrown in. 
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Ah hun Iām sorry your little girl is suffering.
- I think that by dealing with your ācrapā and getting sober is the best gift you can give your children, what a great example you are setting. Please dont be so hard on yourself.
On a practical level could you have a girly shopping trip together and get some nice pretty hair clips accessorise and spend some quality time together?
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Aww thanks. I do have a big mane of thick curly hair. It was the closest Bitmoji hair I could find to resemble mine but I like the Bitmojiās better Iād love to cut it short but fear Iād look like a big round topiary bush 
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Sweet Kairi, you are an amazing mother doing the best that you can. Thatās all you can ask of yourself. Itās so hard watching our children dealing with their struggles. Follow and trust your instincts. Iām so proud of you my friend. 
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Hi Kairi. Dealing with a little oneās insecurities is so difficult. With my kids, I probably said the wrong thing 50% of the time. You want to let them resolve their own issues, yet you want to protect them from the world. Your kids are all gorgeous and Iām sure this was one innocent comment by another child.
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Good morning friends. I canāt tell you how wholeheartedly I agree with Chrisās comments. I rely on you all more than you can imagine. This thread and you wonderful people are what keeps me grounded in my sobriety. Stay strong and stay sober, my friends. And have a fabulous weekend!
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Good day all. Stay strong. Stay the course. 
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Bullies and mean people suckā¦seeing the mother youāve been I know youāll be able to teach her to value herself and brush aside the hurtful words of others. As far as you being a less then perfect mother, nonsense, youāll continue to light your childrens way and theyāll never see as less then perfectā¦to them, oh, and us, your amazingā¦
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When I was a kid, som kid asked if I was a boy or a girl. It bothered me, even as a 6 year old. It made me feel self conscious a bit, but I donāt think it caused any damage.
As an adult with kids of my own, I notice that kids are super honest and donāt have a filter. They call things like they see it, they donāt know that it can hurt otherās feelings.
That kid, that one day all those years ago genuinely didnāt know my gender and was wanted to get to the bottom of it.
6yr old Dasindog. ^^^ ā¦ DasinPupā¦
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Look at that happy kid! And great insight.
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@keiti - I really feel for her. I was often throughout childhood and even as recently as last November mistaken for male. Younger kids donāt really have a filter and do their best to make sense of the world around them, so questions like āis that a boy or a girlā can be common. With adults, it tends to be the fact that I have short hair that some people (mostly men) will glance at me quickly and call me sir.
I get frustrated the way people perpetuate gender stereotypes, such as short hair = male, trousers = male, etc. I am STILL frustrated by this as a adult when I look at childrenās books and toys and even the way my parents speak to my little niece or nephew, focusing on āis that a boy or a girlā in a book with pictures of kids. I kind of fume internally with āWHY DOES IT MATTER!ā In a world where there are many different ways to exist as a female, why is there so much pressure to conform to appearance expectations around hair, jewellery, makeup, clothes, shoes. Women come in many different shapes, sizes, appearances, and demeanours.
I donāt have any useful advice, other than to express understanding of the frustration of how that all feels.
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Weird. Iām actually in the mood for a meeting right now, along with having downtime, which never happens. When I go itās always because I know itās a good idea, not because itās my preference.
But thereās only two meetings after noon on Saturday in this district. One is just an impractical walk, and the other is not remotely an option, in a small town an hourās drive away.
Grarggg. Oh well. Iāve got unpacking to do and things to catch up on before bed anyways.
Happy earth rotation people! Whatcha up to?
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Hi James. How about a podcast? Might satisfy that meeting need while not leaving the house. Just a thought. And what Iām up to is being planted in my recliner and watching TV till I fall asleep. Busy day = lazy night!
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Yes, like @BillS suggests, maybe a speaker tape. Here is one of my favs!
https://youtu.be/CIEG7vdeDgY
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I think itās the social bit Iām looking for, along with feeling less anxious than usual. I will have more chances another day though. Maybe I will have a listen to something. Thanks Bill! (edit: and Ariel @aircircle!)
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Gm rainy day. Pms or ams. Have to make coffee. Btw going to stop smoking next week. I just realized I cannot smoke through that Iron mask ie radiation and cigarettes dont go together well
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I may be wrong Kairi, but I think ego plays a part in this. And of course our need to protect our children. Donāt worry, we have been through a lot of the similar feeling when it come to people hurting our children. And I think the fact that we were bullied ourselves and donāt want our children to go through that pain.
My wife dealt with it by not going to school, I used to lash out. Obviously both are not what we want our children to do. But itās fucking hard when one of them comes home and says that so and so did this or so and so did that. Especially when one of the kids involved was the sister to a child that my wife took to nursery, as a favour for her mum. No grudge! It has been let go! Buuuut?
I hope you know what I mean?
Have a great day Kairi.
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Good day all. Stay strong. Stay the course.
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