So heres how my brain was working today. I walked past a cabinet where my whiskey decanters and glassware live and thought, yeah I could fill those in case guests come over and feel like a finger or 2. No worry in NY head about temptation because we have vodka in the freezer and brandy used for cooking in the pantry…not tempted. But…I rented a storage unit to house some stuff while cleaning out garage, and while I was filling it I noticed a woman doing the same but drinking a beverage that looked peculiarly like a cam of spiked seltzer. Well, there the brain went, off to the races with thoughts of: now that’s a great idea, hide it here, pop in once in awhile, meet the storage unit neighbors and throw a party in an empty unit…then back to earth I fell…A- L- C -O- H -O L -I -C, remember dummy…so here I am, sober and sharing and reading. cristelclear, dont let it sway you. James and Geoff are correct, as are you. Some people it just takes longer…best wishes…
Reading this was like reading my own stream of consciousness. Wow. So nice to know other people out there really get it and I’m not alone with this crazy mind if mine. I can’t even have anything in my house at this point. I don’t have enough distance from to safely do that. I really appreciate you sharing this. I feel less crazy. I’ve tried to explain this thought process to my husband & he looks at me like I have two heads. He’s very supportive but he’s not an alcoholic.
Good morning and good news 
So happy for your mom and you 
Is it the idea of a habit, taste or your own special (and secret) time? I believe there is a reason why someone still has cravings after a relative long sobriety.
Gooood morning 
Extremely insightful. And my answer is all of the above. Plus in the end all of my drinking was done in secret, I thought anyway. I’m not smart enough to realize I wasnt fooling anybody but myself…
Non alcoholics just don’t get it. I just had a talk with my dear old friend and she said that “you should rather drink than smoke”. But I don’t get offended cause she is not familiar with the disease. That’s why I go to meetings, to be with people who understand.
Then I suggest, Chris, that you find and learn a new habit to replace it. Cause the need exists. How about that?
Well Hanna B. You’ll not be hearing an argument from me on the matter.
All this radiation is tuning your brain up Hanana,
Hope you are doing well today.
She’s good!
How so? 
Good day all. Stay strong. Stay the course. 
Good morning earl of Arizona. You bought some talk time?
Hello Mistress of Darkness, I always have funding for talking…
Hi guys, just got in from work. Tired now.
Your car is tired too… ba dunt dun…
Luckily tomorrow is Friday… but you’ve got to work on sat too?
Maybe I really need to get off my butt, out of my comfort zone and to a meeting. I also need to figure out why I’m so hesitant to go to one. I’m still having trouble with the label alcoholic even though all signs point to me being one. Is it important to assign a label to truly recover?
Being honest with yourself about your true relationship with alcohol is what is important. For a lot of people that involves coming to accept the label of “alcoholic”. Others don’t use the label, but find other ways to acknowledge and accept their problem with alcohol. There are those that have strong opinions on this, but my personal opinion is that the word you use doesn’t matter, as long as you maintain that self-honesty.