The second part really speaks to me today after everything that has happened and the very difficult choice I had to make to go my separate ways. It’s been something I’ve been holding onto hoping things would get better but they never did. So here I am now staying in a hotel across from my job so I can still make it to work since I don’t have a license yet since I was arrested for drinking and driving over a year and a half ago.
I walked 7 miles to the hotel after saying I needed time away to figure out what I was going to do. It is clear to me that leaving is my best option and that’s what I’m going to do. I will stay here for a week or so until I find a place to stay and all I can do is hope that the cards get dealt in my favor.
Normally I would have just sat down and drank to “fix” the issue but somehow I managed to do everything right and follow my gut on what to do. Now that I think of it I’m 435 days sober and let me tell you that today was a very hard test that I was surprised with. I have faith that every one who wants to be clean and sober will make the right choices. I’m not much of a religious person so I place my higher power as anything greater than myself. I tend to not reach out and just bottle everything up but I know that’s something I need to work on.
Stay strong everyone and rememeber that we are all here to help! You’re not alone!