Hello, um just need a little encouragement from others going through the same thing!! Relapsed about 6 months ago on meth after being sober for 2 years from opioids. I’ve lost myself and feel hopeless right now!! My emotions are all over the place and I’m beating myself up because I can’t believe I’m back where I started! Help!!
Welcome Brittany You’re in the right place and you are definitely not alone. Many people here have been in exactly your shoes.
Where you are now is hanging onto a rope, in the water around the ship. The ship is sobriety, and everyone aboard is in recovery. You are not there yet but you are holding tightly onto the rope, and the people you meet in recovery - including people here on Talking Sober and in recovery groups you join - are helping by pulling the rope aboard the ship. As long as you hold on, you can come aboard too.
Have a look around here; you’ll find many helpful threads. Personally I found that recovery groups were very helpful for me. There is a good list of groups (also books and podcasts and other information) here:
You are a good person and you deserve to live a safe, sober life, where you can be fully present with yourself and the people you love. You can do it. I am sure you can.
2 years is good solid sober time so this stumble doesn’t need to define you. Dust off your sobriety toolbox and get down to work.
We are here when you need us.
I love this analogy!!!
Welcome Brittany!! Not only are you not alone, you’re not where you started - you are right here, with experience and courage
I hope your journey continues on the path for your happiness and health; interesting thing about our journeys - it never finishes, right?! We’re always going to need to keep moving forward
Welcome Britt!! Sorry you are in a rough spot right now. Even tho it may not feel like it, you have those 2 years, that knowledge of what worked for you and how it felt to be clean. It is still inside you and you can tap into that same strength. Do you do meetings? There are virtual ones as well, that might help when you really need it. Or coming on here and reaching out.
You know the drill…flush what you have and delete numbers and stay away from those you need to stay away from. It sucks…until it doesn’t. You can get back to where you want to be.
Welcome Britt This is my day one from alcohol, actually 24hrs will be as of tomorrow morning. It’s been a ride like on a rollecoaster as I tried really hard stay sober. I learned from every relapse, and most importantly learned something new about myself. What works for me is coming in here, reading posts, sharing if I have something to share with this community and of course reminding myself to be in control (e.g. not have my emotions control my actions and derail me from objectives, plans), and healthy self-love, I deserve to be treated well by myself and that I deserve all the nice things and people God ‘sent me.’ Be strong, have plan, work it out, and one day at a time. You did two years, great achievement!
Be kind to yourself.
We all make mistakes, obviously, and anybody who matters at all and/or understands will not judge you.
So . . . get up, get yourself to a detox (if you’re able), and start over. No big deal.
Thank you so much!! That analogy with the ship was amazing!! I’ve made it thru the first day and I’ve cried more times than I can count today!! So thank you so much everyone!! I’m so grateful to be here!!! Thanks!!!
Welcome Britt,
Just wanna say it can be done. I had 5 years of sober time (alcohol) and had a relapse.
Found this app and I’m back at more then 5 years now. Not to bragg, but to show it can be done.
Like the others said: you haven’t lost your experience and knowledge how to become and stay clean. Dig it up and pick it up where you left it.
We are here when you need us!
How’re you doing today?? How’s the weekend treating you??
That’s great Britt! Let the emotions flow. It will be a waterfall of emotions for a while (because you’ve been burying them with your addiction - we all do that in our addictions), but you’ll get through it.
Keep checking in and keep us posted. Do you have a recovery group you are a member of? I find that really helpful, and I’ve made some good friends there. There’s NA, SMART Recovery, Women for Sobriety, Dharma Recovery, and others; whatever works for you (it works if you work it ). There’s a good list of groups, and lots of good readings and audiobooks, at the link I gave above