This is my first attempt to stop drinking. Im 27 years old and struggling. This year has broke me starting around this time last year i had a mental breakdown after moving across the country by myself losing my partner and just recently losing my dog. i couldnt function at all. I started drinking heavily 1 or 2 bottles and a 30 pack almost daily. I have almost been arrested , ive ended up with a TBI from hitting my head off the concrete , got in physical altercations with some of my best friends , and just yesterday deeply upsetting one of my closest friends after a 2 day bender. I dont even know what i did but it was bad enough they dont wanna talk about it. I am lost and i want to take accountability for my actions and i guess that starts by taking action so along with the therapy i started this year in going to try getting sober.
Hi @Caz33, welcome to the forum and sorry to hear about your alcohol-induced troubles 
From experience: trying isnât good enough, you need to firmly decide that you will be sober from now on. Apologizing, making amends, fixing whatâs broken, all of that can and will come later but for now, itâs imperative that you decide that enough is indeed enough.
Will you be able to hit the pillow sober tonight? If youâre not sure, letâs keep âtalkingâ on here so we can help you get there.
Welcome. Youâre deserving of a life that allows you to experience peace, comfort, and strong connections. It all starts with day 1. Congratulations on being here 
The fact that you relalize that you have a problem means a lot! This is the beginning of a great way to recovery. Seems like you feel that you hit your own bottom and you donât want to check what can go next. Yeah, I understand you a lot, Iâve relapsed recently and feel like if I donât stop I will absolutely ruin my life . We canât allow it, letâs fight for a happy life together
I appreciate that and im making a commitment to myself to make it through new years atleast. Start small and keep going from there. I dumped everything i had so i dont have the option tonight.
I am far from it but hoping this helps for the first time in my life im actually seeking help.
Thatâs a great start, well done and congratulations on waking up hangover-free tomorrow!
I never really felt like i had a problem with alcohol untill this year it. It has only made my mental health deteriorate even more. Ive never known depression anxiety and mania like this. After i made an attempt on my life last year. I started therapy and it became more apparent that i dont have control of that even if i think i do. And i need to make a change im tried of hurting myself and the people i care about.
Welcome heređto see what is and what the own problems are is one of first important stepsâŠ
go on straight and step by little step.
Try to check in daily- this is a great community with many treasures in so many waysđ«¶
One day at a timeđ
Best wishes from Germany Corinna
Hi Caz, welcome to the forum! Keep checking in regularly, the support youâll find here is amazing! 
Welcome!
The first few days all I managed was to sit here in my kitchen, reading this forum and catching online meetings every hour on www.intherooms.com
Eventually I got up on about day 3, managed a shower and some food and never looked back. 46 days today. I will fix the damage I have done but for now it is about me staying sober and doing the work for that to happen.
My experience has been that finding a morning routine to start my day off right has given me the foundation for staying sober today.
I write in the check in thread, gratitude thread and the 100 day challenge thread.
Read from one of my daily sobriety journal books (you can get the everything AA app for free on your phone which has a ton of great sobriety resources to read from daily.
To start with I did online meetings only but after I felt a bit better and was able to get out and about, started going to face to face meetings as well.
Doing those things today will keep me sober today and that is the goal. Tomorrow will take care of itself.
Welcome Caz