Welcome Whitney!
They say hitting a rock bottom can be the solid foundation on which to build your recovery on so good on you for recognising that things need to change and reaching out on here. It’s not an easy step to take but you’re doing it 
I agree, 100% we need to do it for ourselves. (I tried to stop for my family and my kids and that wasn’t even enough to stop me from picking up that drink 
) once I decided I was doing it for me, it was a game changer.
Here is a link from the forum with lots of useful information
It’s great to have you on board, this forum has played a huge role in my sobriety and maybe it will for you too x