Just joined and on Day 1… i am so shameful and self loathing and dont want to live this way any longer. I want to stop poisoning my body and mind with alcohol and enjoy living properly
Welcome Ree, this is a great site, i wouldnt be sober without it, its a great place to start 
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Welcome! You have made the right choice, and you’re in a great place. You can do this! Almost everyone in this group has been where you are. Stay strong, and watch those days tick up.
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First day is always the hardest when ypu hate yourself so much. Fresh mindset tomorrow
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Ree, welcome to a great place to be on your sobriety journey.
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Welcome back and graduation. Today’s the first day of the rest of your life. Best wishes
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Day 0 eager to take control of life. I’m not much of a banger but I have that shabang in me deep down( as we all do). Looking for a way out. I’ve been here before and I need some guidance on the path to righteousness(non religious) I would love nothing more than a clean break/start to a new life and open to any views on this endeavor!!
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Welcome,Ree1. And welcome back to Nick as well. Wishing you both well on this journey. Self hatred has no place in it. Get rid of it or it will keep you stuck. I know this from personal experience. And I know it’s easier said than done. With support and guidance from folks here, as well as in your personal lives, you’ll build your strength and resilience . You can do it!
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We’re all real people, on this path of sobriety taking things one day at a time. Glad you’re here.
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@Ree1 I felt that on Monday. I hated myself so much. People on here said they were proud of me and I just wept. I thought I’d never stop feeling sick and scared. You are so in the right place and have made an amazing and brave decision for yourself
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Glad you’re here. You don’t have to drink anymore! That’s a reason to celebrate. There are a million other hobbies.
Why did you drink? Putting down the bottle is the tip of the iceberg.
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Glad you are here! Keep coming back and posting and reading. It’s a lifesaver.
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I’m on day 3 myself. Took 3 days for all the depression thoughts to subside to where my brain is even able to have a happy thought. Keep going.
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How is Day Two going?
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I am on 6 days of being clean.
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Oh, I know that hatred. I’ve spent most of my adult life being sober, then thinking I am finally “normal,” then being a slithering boozehound, then returning to sober. This time around, the sober is sticking because I lost one thing I’d held onto all those times before— that hatred. Part of my acceptance is finally just seeing myself, flaws and all, as an alcoholic who is brave and kickass enough to see my flaws and work like mad to fix them. Alcoholism is one of them. I also hold onto some traumas. I struggle with communication. I am hopelessly direction dead. Too often, I ignore signs that I need to rest. And I eat too much candy. Let go of the hatred. Please believe me, it just fuels the addiction cycle and increases the chances you’ll be at day 1 again. You’re here. You realized you have a problem. You reached out. You are already brave and driven and worth love and support.
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Keep going, and dont give up. Im 54 and i hit bottom back on july 3 of this year. I’ll keep trying if it takes the rest of my life, so be it. I had my doctor put me on Naltrexone, and its working with my cravings. Havent felt this good in a long time.
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Welcome !! Great to have you here. 
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So basically i failed straight away but on day 2 again…
Feeling a lot more positive this time round after writing out my WHY i drink and why i dont want to.
I am telling myself every few hours,
“Isnt it great my life is no longer ruled by poison!”
Its definitely helpful for me and being active here is keeping me focused on the benefits my life will see knowing that i choose to no longer drink.
Another step i have taken is to ban my snappy shopper account and delete tge tesco delivery app.
Its one less temptation/ excuse in my way and also told my family i was doing so
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I’m on day two all, and glad to be a part of this community. I don’t feel like I have much support as 98% of the people around me drink and I feel as though they may judge me for quitting. It’s going to be a challenge but I’m ready to take it on. I’m tired of spending my free time drinking and ready to focus on my health and dreams.
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