Welcome Whitnee to our little family 
@GVLNative made a good post above with links to some good threads. I’ll add one more here:
Resources for our recovery
Dive in, read, and learn everything you can. Most important: don’t ever, ever give up, no matter what. You’re a good person, you belong here, you deserve a sober life where you feel good about yourself - and you can have it. Welcome to your sober life!