It is hard to believe it’s been 9 years since I downloaded this app. I was 1 week sober, it could have been just another attempt at sobriety (I swore most nights tomorrow would be different)…I had years of trying to get sober. I could never make it stick. But the days turned to weeks to months to years. Impossible to imagine then after 40+ years of drinking and using. 30 days seemed impossible. And yet, here it is 3,287 days later, 9 years. Still sober.
The strength and support, the very foundation of my life now, is my sobriety. All else can be chaos, and I have this beating pulse of strength that helps me move through life’s inevitable challenges with clarity and if not exactly purpose, then an openness to whatever the eff is coming next, I can handle it. 
I spent a long time clinging to the belief that a happy life was one without suffering or strife, was one that ran smoothly. And yes, those moments are like sunshine (and rainbows). But life holds more than just the good stuff. And when I struggle or resist life, you can be sure something is on its way to remind me of what being alive truly is.
Sobriety is the foundation that helps me stay in the moment, open to it all, it is the inner confidence and self love I needed all along. I am grateful every day for all of you being here (past and present) and all the ways you have taught me and helped me along and held me up. The light is always on here and that helps so much.
Sobriety doesn’t solve life’s challenges, but it does make me believe in myself and love myself and remind myself that change is always possible. That this moment, right now, is the one that matters. I am here. We are made up of stardust after all. 
A little health update…after 2 surgeries, the surgeon did get clear margins. Recommendations from oncologists are low dose hormone blockers for 3 years and 5 weeks of radiation (or 5 days of stronger radiation). Fairly standard US protocol for non aggressive breast cancer. For someone my age…65…there is also a growing trend toward monitoring and wait and see. This is what I am choosing. Radiation and tamoxifen both have potential side effects (one being thrust back into menopausal symptoms, ha, no thanks, earned that award already) and I am only just starting to feel like myself again after the family challenges and natural disasters and health stuff from the past 1.5 years. So…that’s where I am at. Being here, now. Just doing my thing. Oh and getting that tooth extraction and bone grafting next week, really. 
May today be our peaceful day. 
A little background for newer members, if interested…
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I hope you have the best day ever and congrats! I appreciate you and everything you do here. This place is awesome!
Thanks Lisa, I am so glad we are on this journey together. I love you too!! 