Day 11 no booze… am I normal now?

Life in Recovery
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The truth is, yea. I am normal. I have a normal life, normal day to day problems and happenings, the one thing is that I have an allergy to alcohol. Every time I drink it normalisation is reversed.

On day 11 I’m asking myself if o can be rewarded with a few beers. Surely, after ten whole days I can have one beer, right?

Wrong!
One may be fine, two may be ok - I might even be ok tomorrow if I drink 12 tonight but one thing is for sure, I’ll only be walking down hill again and I’ll start to increase in speed until I get to the lowest of low points.

Then I’ll have to climb back up again.

‘Nothing has more value than hard work’, it better be worth is because boy, this is hard work.

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It’s so absurd wanting to reward beeing drug free by using drugs and afterwards get back to being drug free because being annoyed and frustrated and fucked up about using drugs. :woman_facepalming::woman_facepalming::woman_facepalming::woman_facepalming: That’s the addicted brain talking.
Stay strong! ODAAT :pray:

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Haha yep the insanity of addiction! It sure is hard work but it does get more manageable over time. Keep strong, take it ODAAT and whatever strategies are helping you - keep at it - it works if you work it :raised_hands:t3:

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Great insight, one is never enough…and it only provides a dismal future.

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It’s bizarre that this is the way our addict minds reason but we all do it. :tired_face: Play the tape forward and it blows that addict reasoning out of the water.

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