Day 12 today and this is the real test

Today marks a real test for me personally. I am sober 12.5 days but due to mental health I have had 2 weeks off work. So today I go back to the job that I hate, I wish I didn’t feel the need for validation. Everyone said I should become a carer and I’ve been doing it 3 months and I wish I had ignored everyone. The job isn’t for me, the staff are like school children constantly talking behind each others backs and very judgemental. I pray that god grants me the strength to get through today and I pray I find another job ASAP as this one is no good for my mental health, I need to get back to what I’m good at which is customer services, a desk job. Sorry to ramble on, I feel as though I have nobody to open up to and nobody truly understands me.

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Congrats on your 12days! :tada::partying_face:You got this! Sorry about your toxic job. But no matter how crappy work goes today. Do not pick up that first drink when you get off, it will not help. Instead use that time to start applying for other jobs.

Hope that your day at work goes better then you are anticipating. It sucks to work in environments where that is allowed. But the good news is your not freshly hangover. Which might make it a little easier to handle. Stay strong! you got this!

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Sorry that you are feeling this way. I hate being around people who behave like that, people who put others down just to make themselves feel bigger and better. Work is such a big part of our lives, it takes up so much of our time, life is easier when you are in a job you can enjoy. We can’t let others choose that for us.
Check in here as often as you need. Just focus on today for now. You’ll get through your day.

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Thank you! I won’t give them the pleasure of me caving and drinking, no chance. I just need another job but jobs are so hard to come by nowadays.

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I hope so, thank you. I complained about my last job alot but it was SO much better. Better staff, better environment and better pay. When I lost that job it took me 5 months to find another job and I can’t bear the thought of being at this job another 5 months plus.

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If the job doesn’t fit, then it just doesn’t. Work your way into the one that does, Matt. You deserve to be happy in all areas of your life.
Keep kicking ass on sobriety and it will all certainly work out as it’s supposed to!

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Thank you, I am trying, applying for jobs everyday. Here’s hoping! It will be 2 weeks this Friday

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You can do this, it’s only temporary. focus on your recovery and your spiritual fitness pray and do the next right thing.

Don’t get stressed out or negative wear life like a lose garment

You might find out that you actually like your job when you are actively using my friend.

GL

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Thank you :slight_smile: