Day 2 again.. let's do this

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Morning all, day 2 and feeling really crappy about things. I’ve just re installed this app to try and keep me motivated and focused. Tomorrow I have two interviews for a new job so something to also focus on :folded_hands:

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welcome back :sunflower:

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Welcome back, job hunting needs energy and clarity for sure. And if you get the job, you will want to be present and lucid to do it well.

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Thank you for the replies.. glad to be back and know it’s a better way of life. I have so much to be present for. My 21 year old daughter that has been through it with me all her life but now she lives with me. And my 14 month old daughter who I don’t want seeing or being around what my eldest was.

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Welcome. It’s a good app. Reach out before you decide to pick up your drug of choice and many folks will tell you why you shouldn’t. Good to have you with us.

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Thank you :folded_hands:. It’s more of an alcohol thing as I was clean from drugs for quite some time. But recently crept back in.

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Addictions will do that. My primary was alcohol but I did trade around quite a bit, sugar, TV, THC. 3+ years sober from alcohol thanks to the support of these fine folks on here. Lean on us. You can do this.

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Appreciate the kind words and I’m going to really try and make it a daily thing to come on here with my gratitudes and daily check in.

Well done on your 3 years that’s a massive achievement.

I’m starting to really feel it now as well as I’m not getting any younger at 41! I’m addicted to most things, boots, trainers, keeping aquatic fish, motorbikes. I always have to have more and more :see_no_evil_monkey:. But some of those are good addictions, this one needs to be kicked though. I know I’m a better person without it.

Just hate the conversations I have at lunch time in my head about drinking, or on just before leaving for work and then on the way home. It drives me insane!

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Have you tried stopping drinking before?

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Try to stop arguing with yourself in your head and argue it out here with us. We’ll help you tease it all out.

My brain is also one that is primed for more. I give myself a pass on food, books and thrifted clothes. Those are the categories that I’ve settled on with no limits.
Thanks for the congrats. These 3 years are hard won and I’m proud but I’m still considered early sobriety until I make 5 years. I come here everyday, still, for help. Putting down the drink is really the first step to a better life. Learning to live without the “more” is a lifelong pursuit.

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I have many times yes. I’ve been in and out of the rooms for over 10 years. And within those years had a lot of life changing situations that of course I’ll say turned me to drink again. But I know that it’s me who takes that first drink. I’ve done 14 months which was my longest salary time. Then a few months here and there, then 10 days or 7 days then mega blowouts everyday for months or years until I go back.

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I can imagine it’s been very hard and you must be so proud of what you have achieved. Only for today and you are doing great I applause you sir.

I will try what you recommended about coming on here if I have these arguments within my head and that would be doing something different that I normally do and taking a positive step.

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What are you planning on doing differently this time?

What is it that caused you to start drinking again last time?

You said you’ve gone to meetings, have you gone through the 12 steps with a sponsor? When was the last time you went through your steps?

Gosh you put that pretty much perfectly there my friend, and I agree with certain “allowances” :wink:

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There is no moderation in my brain so it’s freeing to stop fighting for it. There is a freedom in that knowledge.

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Welcome back! Hope ur feeling a bit better today and that ur interviews go well. Keep us updated if u like :slight_smile:

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I’ve only been able to stay clean/sober while working the 12 steps and before that, I probably relapsed 20 times.

do you want me to post the link to virtual AA meetings?

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Good morning all you fine people!

@JVKE This time I plan to go to meetings again as I stopped before. I did work the steps a long time ago but quit when I got to step ten. I need to re work them but properly this time as I think they was rushed before. I’m not sure what caused me to relapse, I usually find any excuse to drink… the link to virtual meetings would be great thank you :+1:.

@Butterflymoonwoman Thank you, I’m feeling a little better right now and I got offered both jobs so I’m over the moon. Good things to come and now keep me even more focused :folded_hands:

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how did the job interviews go?