I read threads and literature until about 3am. I feel strong today. I keep logging back in here and reading when my mind starts to wander. I hope it’s not a false sense of strength and that I’m not fooling myself again into thinking I don’t have “that bad of a problem”. This time I’m staying very connected and aware of my triggers. I’m avoiding my “normal routine” and trying some new things. School is out for the summer and this is usually when I spend my days by the pool drinking all day. I got up and cleaned house instead. I’m doing laundry. I have a zoom meeting at 12. I’m staying busy. I can and will make it through this day. I’m speaking it into existence, but also applying tools I’m gaining through this and other sites. That’s the difference this time.
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