Decided to quit Ketamine for good yesterday. Been addicted to it since I was 19 and started attending university.
I found it fun at first, it was a good social lubricant and helped with feeling introverted in social situations. Pretty quickly it became an escape from my problems and traumatic experiences with abuse. Once it got out of control it became impossible to stop, tried quitting so many times but always went back to it.
I went sober at my mums house for a while during lockdown but fell off the wagon once I moved back to Brighton, where I currently live. I decided to go sober on Sunday and finally cut ketamine out of my life for good, a concept that always scares me.
Day one was okay, i just spoke to my friends and family about it and made some plans of how to stay clean. But today is proving to be super tough, getting cravings and feelng a similar feeling to a break up, its almost like I am about to lose the love of my life, even though the relationship to ketamine feels very abusive.
Does anyone have any advice? Early stages of recovery from a drug is so difficult and I feel pretty lost. Luckily i have a couple good hobbies, like writing code using javascript and bouldering.
