I feel this hollow. Just keep thinking about picking the bottle up or even slicing my arms up just to numb the pain a bit. I just woke up and instantly burst into tears. I dont know if thats because im having to face reality now or because my love has left me because of my alcoholism. or just being overwhelmed. i dont have a clue. I feel really sick aswell. I really dont want to get out of bed and do anything alls i can think to do is cry
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The pain and withdrawals are temporary. Your brain and body are going through a lot of changes right now and you’re going to feel emotional and this is normal. Picking up a drink is a very temporary solution and you’re still going to wake up in the morning With even worse problems because you’re back to doing what you don’t want to do. I know things are difficult right now but they will get better. You have to have faith and understand that these feelings are temporary. I know what it’s like to lose so many things because of drinking whether it’s loved ones or material things but what’s most important is you look out for yourself right now. The best thing you can do for yourself right now is not pick up that drink. Give yourself a break. Give yourself a chance by staying sober for the next 24 hours and take things easy. Drink water, breathe, rest if you can, read around on here. It will get better. You don’t have to solve everything today. You just have to not pick up that drink.There is light at the end of the tunnel. One day at a time.
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Have you been able to eat anything yet? Even if it’s something small it might help. A little bit of fruit or soup anything light…At the very least stay hydrated which I’m sure you know. Keep pushing forward no matter what. There’s a whole entire community here that understands. It does get better faster than you probably realize
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If this is too hard to do on your own you should consider going to the hospital and asking for help there or going to a 5 to 7 day detox facility.
Then someone can help you find help after the withdrawals.
I think you might be setting yourself up for failure by trying to do it on your own.
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Im sorry to read you’re struggling so bad. How are you doing today?
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I spent a lot of my early sober days more in bed, than out of bed.
Read around here and interact so you know you aren’t alone. Read old threads about how people knew they were an alcoholic or transformational before and after threads.
Do anything you need to do to go to sleep sober.
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I’m sorry you are having a hard time right now. I definitely feel for you and remember that first week and how hard it was dealing with all the emotions and physical withdrawals so intensely at the same time. All I can tell you though is if you stick it out it does get better with each passing day . I found spending time here reading and engaging with people on the threads very helpful for me as everyone was very helpful, kind and understanding. I really hope you choose to stay sober with us all here today. You can do this ODAAT.
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