Today is 24 days without opioids And I had a test of my willpower. I was sitting on the couch and noticed something on the floor. I went over to check it out and holy crap it was an Oxycodone tablet.
My friend from NA said, “don’t let your guard down. Your addiction is doing pushups in the parking lot”
I didn’t realize how true that was. I had a flood of warmth cove over me and my first thought was, “take the pill!” But I didn’t. I restrained myself. I sat there for a few minutes inspecting the pill. It read ON in one side and 40 on the other and it was that shade of orange I remembered. Yup it was an oxy all right.
I feel like this was my higher power testing me. To see if I could really stay clean, even with access to my DOC. I threw it out. It pained me to do it, but I felt accomplished after. I know the battle is far from over, but I passed the first test and I’ll work hard to pass the next one too.
Thanks for reading! I’m going to celebrate by snugglmy cat and take a nap before work
Good job! That can be tough to do in the beginning. You made the right choice. I was on and off opioids for quite a while, and I always deeply regretted giving in afterwards when I went backward. It was never worth it. Just keep going. You’ve got this.
This is awesome! I know that exact feeling. The freeze. The racing heart. The internal arguments. But you did it! From someone who has been fighting to get off those f*ckers for over a year, I commend you. I am proud of you. Oh yea and tell your kitty I said “meow”
Dude that is absolutely amazing! I am so proud of you! I know we don’t know each other but as one opiate addict to another that’s a huge deal!! I just passed the 2 year mark and although I would love to say that I did it on my own the reality is that I was using meth to get over the withdrawal symptoms. I don’t recommend it! I am now 95 days clean off meth I believe and 30 something off alcohol. This is the first time in over 20 years I have been 100% substance free! No pills no weed no alcohol no meth or ANYTHING! it’s a trip for sure! But also so freeing! Keep it up you got this!!! I’m rooting for you!!
And I had a test of my willpower. I was sitting on the couch and noticed something on the floor. I went over to check it out and holy crap it was an Oxycodone tablet.
and 30 something off alcohol. This is the first time in over 20 years I have been 100% substance free! No pills no weed no alcohol no meth or ANYTHING! it’s a trip for sure! But also so freeing! Keep it up you got this!!! I’m rooting for you!!