I have completed 31 days without drinking. I am delighted with that.
This weekend has been tough. I played with a band at an outdoor event, the alcohol really appealed. I don’t know why more so than previously?! I was unprepared I think. I’ve been dreaming about the stuff too… Is that normal?!
Then finally I had a big outburst of anger on the road today with my daughter in the car. This nearly resulted in a fight. This is not me at all. I know my inner dark soul caused this but can’t seem to shake the shadow & find peace at the moment.
Dreams are totally normal. I had one the other night over 5 months in.
If you were craving alcohol and didn’t have any that would definitely put you on edge. Especially if you weren’t prepared - that’s a lesson to learn. It will be easier next time now you know. Be kind to yourself and give yourself some time. This too shall pass. I don’t get angry but I get emotional which is similar stuff I guess. Meditation, yoga and walking have helped me.
I don’t know if you do any exercise or have any hobbies etc that help you keep centered. If not it may be time to take something up!
Hey there! I’m at 31 days too and I can relate. Usually when I’m away from home, I feel like I get over stimulated and I start to feel anxious. That’s not a normal feeling for me and I tend to lash out at my wife and kids, undeservingly. I also get bouts of PAWS that amplifies this feeling.
How do I deal with it? Breathe in, breathe out… I can feel the anxiety increase, so I focus on being calm. This whole ordeal will pass, may take up to 2 years, but will get easier and less intense each day.
I’m going to follow suit here, the dreams are totally normal, not pleasant but normal. My dreams have not really circulated around alcohol but loosing my kids, which would have happened if I did not quit alcohol…
Anger outbursts are normal too, your still adjusting to your emotions, I’m 87 days in now and I’m only just Managing my reactions to different situations, when I was having outbursts I try and reflect on how I could have done it differently.
Well done on the 31 days, that’s a good achievement
Hey thanks for replying, much appreciated. Yeah I do a fair amount of exercise… I think I may need to learn how to relax more effectively. Thanks again
There are also lots of apps, I use Calm and paid for the subscription, not sure how much free content there is. There’s another one that I think is all free called Insight Timer. Can’t hurt to try
Thank you everyone for your kind & helpful advice. I think it was just a bad day, today was much better. Did a long meditation which helped. Feeling back on track x ️
I’m sure you will have many more, you learn more from each one, just remember it will pass even if in the moment you want to punch the crap out of something
Thanks Red Dragon! Funny throughout that whole episode (two days of irritation, anger & frustration) my whole body ached. I think I may have masked the pain with drink in the past…
Definitely, I had 3 days of intense irritable feeling, snappy, generally being a bitch, thank goodness it passed. My smart recovery facilitator really done my head in last week and all I could picture in my head was strangling him, I kept my cool which is great for me as I normally open my mouth before thinking. I changed groups and put in a complaint instead. Glad you are feeling so much better now
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