It’s all a process, all these emotions come up and if you’re go to response used to be to have a drink then it’s hard to know how to handle them.
There is a post on here with links to lots of meditations on YouTube.
https://talkingsober.com/t/meditations-for-recovery/362
There are also lots of apps, I use Calm and paid for the subscription, not sure how much free content there is. There’s another one that I think is all free called Insight Timer. Can’t hurt to try 