I’m almost at my year and the strength I found early is fading away. I have tried sooo hard to be the person I know I am. I just don’t understand if all this works than why am I still soo alone. I feel the more I move forward it just takes me away from everyone that I love. The isolation is deafening.
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I’m sorry you’re having a rough day. My strength comes and goes too. I think a lot of it for me is all this cooped up pandemic stuff. But I am seeing a light at the end of the tunnel. I want to get out and do things so badly.
I just keep thinking of the things I’m so grateful for now that I’m sober. And there’s just so much. Check out our gratitude thread if you’re interested.
Others have said just reading it helps them.
I hope your feelings change for the better tomorrow. Keep checking in. You’re worth it.
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I felt very dull, and just there in the same days as you. Tired alot and just out of it, I felt exactly the same. Just keep pushing forward it will get better, trust the process and do what you can. Be gentle and kind to yourself, remember everything your doing is to protect your sobriety, everything will come in time.
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I think its normal to feel alone sometimes. What I’ve come to realize is that I was always in the same situation, but I was numbing out with using. Real intimacy, vulnerability, relationships, and friendships can start to foster themselves once I’m truly present in my life. It was impossible for me to really be 100% present with people when I was looking to either get something from them in the form of an unmet need, or alternatively I was thinking about or in a haze from using.
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It is just soo lonely… I feel like an 80 year old spinster when I am only 39. The other being how easily I could make friends and find love. It’s like why now… I have fought and fought but for this… I hate this
Have you looked into Intimacy Anorexia? There are online tests, and I can get you some literature if you’re interested.
I have never even heard of it
https://www.loveaddictionhelp.com/the-9-love-addict-types
There’s a small section in there. If it sounds like something you’d want I can hunt down an SLAA pamphlet on IA.
it’s just for now. Remember all the good times too, they will come back. Can’t always be good days gotta fight through some bad days to get to the best part 
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It is natural to have peaks and troughs of motivation. Also remember being the person u are is a journey, not a destination. As for feeling alone, without knowing ur situation it is hard to comment. Making friends or finding a partner takes time, and even if u find them, being connected takes continual effort, and in the end, we are all alone in our head.
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Thank you for your kind words… No storm last forever… Just trying to breathe…
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I am sorry that Day 320 was a struggle. But, I think you are amazing for putting one foot in front of the other and making it to Day 320! Very well done!
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Think of this sense of loneliness as the end of you’re trials. That feeling has always been inside of you but now that you’re so far into your Sobriety, you’ve finally noticed it for what it is. Don’t fight it. Seek solitude in your loneliness. Embrace it and Master it. I would like to share a little quote with you…
“Receive a Guest with the same attitude you have when Alone. When alone, maintain the same attitude you have in receiving Guests.”
~Soyen Shaku
You’re so close to that Year and you’ve overcame so many challenges and accomplished so many things. You can overcome this Loneliness and Master it as well.
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Stay strong. 320 days is bloody fantastic! This too shall pass 
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Thank you for the quote, very powerful message. This is my Mantra for the weeks to come.
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