Feeling extremely broken. After a recent traumatic event, I experienced an intense period of depression. Self-care was neglected. It was like nothing I’ve ever felt before. Upon recovering, my hip length hair, which had been left in a bun for weeks, had to be cut off. A part of me is dead. I’d spent years growing it out and pouring all the love I possibly could into it. Now it’s gone. I feel like my feminine energy has been taken from me. The instinct to numb is VERY PRESENT. I know that will do nothing for my future health and hair, and I’m staying the course.
I feel like a broken teacup. 
4 Likes
I’m sorry to hear that @Mila907ak - for something so close to your core, your sense of self, to be taken away; that’s heartbreaking 
I hope you find some peace in seeing the new growth. You know the numbing won’t help. Keep reaching out here and in other constructive spaces if you have them. We are wiser and stronger together 
1 Like
Im sorry youre struggling and feeling low. Im proud of you for reaching out and processing this hurt
1 Like
Hi Jen. Sorry you are struggling so much. Your feeling of the world around you collapsing. That desire to “numb” out the pain can be almost impossible to control. But you are doing your best right now. Voicing your struggle here with us who very much understand what is happening in your brain. You are in fight or flight mode, your mind is telling you to shut down and protect yourself. Just stay present and recognize the feelings, and realize that you are actually safe. You do not need to ingest anything to chemically protect yourself right now. Breath, do not think about the past or future, tell your subconscious mind you are safe in this very moment.
When you find a calm moment, give it a warm welcome. Keep going, your doing well Jen. We are here for you!!!
1 Like
This is so true. Don’t let your brain trick you. Be present in the moment and connect. Only connect.
2 Likes