Crying because I’m terrified to listen to music while I cook, I’m terrified to cook, in scared of the kiddos take in the grocery store…
Today was really rough.
But I made it to a meeting and I made dinner, listened to music and all without having a drink so I did it today.
And I just wanted to say that this is the hardest shit ever but I feel damn good.
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What you’re experiencing right now may sound esoteric, but your shadow self (the ego or your mind state) has been sneaky and conviced your conscious (true authentic self) that because you drink…you have always been and always will be a “drunk”.
The ego doesn’t want you to fight back. It wants what it wants. When you stop drinking, you are beginning the process of taming your mind and controlling the ego. It tells you to be scared. To be terrified. “How dare you take this away from me”.
Calm your mind. Be in the present moment. Grasp the secret that you never needed alcohol in the first place. You’ve been lied to this whole time by you unconscious mind.
Watch Spiderman 3 with Toby McGuire. That’s basically the same concept 
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I just wanted to say I am proud of you. Keep going. It’s worth it.
Good for you @Annastasia! One day at a time, one step at a time - that’s how you climb the mountain 
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One day at a time is no joke. I’m on day 5 for the first time in years and also feeling great. I just have to keep reminding myself that nothing is permanent and everything passes with time, including the cravings. We got this!
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I think I understand. I had a lot of things, just regular life stuff, I never thought I would feel okay doing without a drink. And that freaked me out. It is so hard at first and so worth it. I hope you are proud of yourself for doing this cuz it takes a lot. Happy for you!! And it really does get easier, but first it is really hard. Take it a day at a time. 
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Congrats on a big sober win!!! The 1sts sober are tough but you are tougher
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