Im on day 47 of no alcohol. I stopped drinking bc I got diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and alcohol makes my symptoms worse. I am almost two months into a break up. Things are getting easier but sometimes I just get really fucking bored and the boredom turns into depression. Ive picked up knitting as a hobby which i love. I try my best to stay busy with friends and family. But when im at home, alone and with nothing to do is when I start to fade back into the past and yearn and want to do something impulsive and undo the progress ive made. How do you all fight your boredom and impulsivity?
About the suggestions you ask, I suppose is a matter of personal choice.. for me it’s either do some workout, go for a run, or go to do some works in the garden..
Photography, film making and painting are my current favorites. Hiking, exploring, etc.
Filling the time I use to spend drinking with these has a huge positive impact on my recovery. Occasionally i wonder if the voice of self destruction goes away permanently.
Mine isnt as loud as it used to be. It’s still there.
I’ve worked to hard going forward to want to go backwards. I Keep moving forward.
I know how the self destruct story ends. I get to write a new story now!
I can change bordom. I cant change the consequences of self destruction.
For me it’s reading, watching movies, playing a video game, learning/playing guitar. Sometimes I just eat a meal and realize my lack of willpower was just because I was hungry. If all else fails, I just go to bed early to silence the voices and set myself up for a better tomorrow.
I’ve a cycle of boredom. Getting bored and when I am bored enough I start plenty of new things, all at once. Which will lead into exhaustion and being overwhelmed and ending none of them. Which will lead to boredom. And the cycle begins anew.
I have really a hard time to break this cycle. It’s baby steps.
At the moment I’ve agreed with my therapist to talk with him first before I sign up a new thing, course, start a new study, ect…
