Day 5 and the needle keeps calling

Why is it always the last shot? I hate it and it makes my hate myself so I do it again because I’m a piece of shit and it is what I deserve. Then I spiral until my loved ones save me but I fear they won’t be there forever. I’m lost and it seems li me someone turned out the light. Can anyone relate or tell me what to do

I totally agree with Ncloud…it’s the disease telling you that you are not worth it. Don’t let it, get professional help ASAP and until you can Put It Down. I’m an alcoholic never have done any other drugs but addiction is addiction is addiction. Prayers for you.

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