So everyone know the point in the beginning where your messed up mind is like “man you have done good for so many day, you should reward yourself” I’m dealing with that right now. I realize that I need to “reward” myself with something better or different. I just don’t know what it is. I also know the first month is the hardest but I also know my mind is f-ed. Ugh. I’m not gonna do it. It’s just one of those days. In addition I need to go to Walmart which I have been putting off because they sell the liquor right next to the milk 
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Hi ya please try and hold out and not drink your feel so proud of yourself when u wake up tomorrow hangover free . I know it’s hard to change our patterns but we need to keep pushing through the more soba days we get the better our lifes become x
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Your speaking the truth
Its a bad pattern that we have managed to mess our life up.
Tomorrow will be good with no hangover. Right now is good because we are sober and not abnocechisly (wow im no good at spelling) talking about whatever. Drinking solves nothing
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Hang in there! Halfway to double digits. Reward yourself with some lovely flowers.
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I looked up some nice alcohol free cocktails to make. That really helps me to replace and fade out the urge for alcohol a little more. And sure there will be hard days, but if you’re surrounded by kind and supportive people you can do everything. Also not drinking will make you feel so strong at the end of the day
Take care!
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Hi. I myself know it’s hard with the struggling. Going to stores, especially where they serve alcohol, being in my family, they drink around me! Knowing very well I’m an alcoholic, so I have no way of even getting away from it, except to run away! And I cant very well do that, bc I take care of my mom who has cancer, my name is on the deed to this house I grew up in, and well, I have six children ages 28 yrs to two 16 yr old. So keep your head high and work your steps and reach out to ppl on here to talk to, and do meetings online. They help!! We are all here for!!!
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Thats true about Walmart lol. Stay strong don’t give in, the first two weeks are the hardest. Take care
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I’m finally at 30 days and the first few days were hard. Stay strong you can do this. When I would get the urge I tried reading it sketching anything to get up and doing something. Also do you need milk or could you go another day when the urge is.not there. Or a different store or gas station that sells milk with alcohol not close by it. Even if it cost a few more bucks you will feel better then buying alcohol that you will regret later. Or even of someone can go with you might help. Just remind yourself why you are doing this helped me
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Hang in there. Don’t say you’re not going to do it because you’re stronger than you know. I know they say one day at a time but sometimes you need to take it one minute at a time. My suggestion to you for when you go to Walmart, only take enough cash for what you need and leave your debit card at home. You got this, we are all behind you! Stay strong, believe me when I say it’s worth it!!
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I am going to try a different grocery store. But I’ll have to go to Walmart eventually. It’s just so convenient. They have everything I need from dog food to cheese
That’s a good suggestion. Thank you
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Update: I went to the dollar store where they don’t sell liquor and was able to get some items. Also am currently baking a cake. I will still have to go to Walmart in the next few days but plan on taking the husband with me for moral support
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Good work Jennifer. Taking the husband to Walmart seems like a good one. Moral support and physical restraint when must be 
. Doing good lady. Keep going. Happy baking. It will get beter. One day at a time. Hugs.
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On day 157 I have to reset because I can’t figure out how to deal with my feelings. Depression has never felt this heavy. I want to run away from my entire life
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talk to us, why do you have to reset, is it too late, what’s your drug of choice.
It’s to late. I’m a few drinks in. Husband problems. I’m looking into therapy because I need to figure out my own problems with insecurities, among other things.
I also think I look for too much outside validation. In my mind it speaks volumes that only 1 person responded
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Hey Jennifer, I’m here if you need to chat. I know the struggle about feeling alone. I don’t have a hubby but I do remember when I did; it’s hard making changes and keeping a relationship going.
Hugs to you tonight, sweetie. 
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Thank you. I’ll start over tomorrow hopefully. Maybe this isn’t the app for me. I just feel like more people should care but also maybe I’m not worth caring about
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I hope you stay; you are most definitely worth caring about. I get in funks often lately and feel unnoticed. Yesterday on my day off no one called or texted me, lol. I thought the same as you…hmmmph! Lol
Then I thought I have to make an effort also. I’m definitely a loner but I want to not be so much.
Check in tomorrow, you’ll know what’s best for you. You can always come back!
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