Day 7 after a coke after 1 nights (8-9 hour) binge…
Theres not even words to explain what I just went through the last week, I often heard it said in meetings the slips and relapses get worse and worse as you try to go back out, They are ABSOLUTELY CORRECT!! There is a very thin line between sanity and insanity and I was skating along it, Its absolutely scared the shit out of me! I’m not a dependant on both drugs daily but I definitely use for escape after a some time goes by… but in my case I’m.either dope sick depressed anxious brain fog or some type of withdrawal symptoms is effecting my daily living after a so called party binge!! So I’m no different to the daily sufferer of any addiction
I’m so ready to change !!
Cannot put myself through that torture again and that’s taking anything or coming off anything
Soberity for me is the way to peace!
Today I have woken and its the first day I’m not so bad and it’s starting to lay off and iv prayed and handed over constantly to god that he would give me the chance to try this again and send it my way!!
God bless you all xx