Day 21 and feeling pretty good physically and sleeping better. Downside is I feel I have lost all now and can't even go sit at a bar to forget my troubles and feel part of life for a few hours. I'm living with someone who is looking after me well but feel guilty as she wants to be more than a nurse to me but I only feel a spiritual attraction to her.
On a positive note, I have found Kevin O'Hara s you tube channel very helpful...Alcohol Mastery and listen every day. He walks a lot which I have started doing. Lucky for the old guy I pulled out of the canal yesterday I was on a walk instead of in the pub. Oops, there goes my Ego again looking for a pat on the back.
I feel so disconnected from the world, not working and have no desire to work. No sex drive either which is not like me. I just want old life back.
physically fit and living in a happy home with a partner I desire.
Oh well ,there it is in print above.Not much to ask so hopefully the universe will deliver.
Onwards and upwards, hope everyone here is doing OK.