So here at tge start again, after self destruct mode again, drinking, tablets and cocaine, sat here trying to get a grip, of my life once again
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Big hugs Laura you can do this u know sending strength 
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Thankyou, what a battle we put ourselves through x
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U were doing great until the holiday why dont u go back go what u were doing before that…the meetings etc xx
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Welcome to day 1 Laura. We are here for you my friend. Lean on us if you need. I know you are stronger than these addictions. They do not define or rule you. Utilize the tools that you have gathered. 
Keep strong as the beginning is a rough start. Hang in there - cause it does get easier 
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Yes i plan to ,ive done nothing today just trying to gather my thoughts, i guess one lazy day doesn’t hurt ,i planto get back on track, thankyou for your support
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thats great to hear
lazy days are so welcome especially at the beginning of the journey. enjoy your day of rest
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Cant sleep heads all over the place, meant to have work tomorrow, dont even want to go,been on sick for last few days cant tell them really why ,could do with a real break, but can’t as have so many responsibilities 
sorry so negative just need to rant
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Keep ranting away it’s better than using. BTW I told my boss what I was struggling with and what I was doing about it, didn’t know what to expect and to be honest I wasn’t in a position to care. Ended up with 3 weeks off work and support I didn’t know was capable from my boss 
sometimes honesty is the best policy.
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Have no motavation at all house work piling up around me ,skint and feeling really crap ,just the thought of drinking,and using to find the motivation
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Hugs from me laura, have u eaten anything? Are u hydrated…start with the basics the rest (housework) can wait just focus on getting the basics down for now, its gonna be ok, im here if u need to keep talking xx
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This really will not help and only make you feel crappy afterwards.
Is housework absolutely necessary? I am a neat freak and have to have things just so but during my early sobriety i had to let go of this and just let things be as they were - it drove me nuts at times but i had to remind myself that my sobriety was worth more than a clean kitchen.
If things HAVE To get done - then just do a 10 min tidy up every time you go to get water or use the bathroom… this doesn’t put pressure on your mind that you are dedicating time to clean but you also start seeing bits of progress.
It is perfectly ok to take a nap or lounge. I know for many of us we think we have to be moving to be productive. In early sobriety you are being productive just sitting (you are not indulging in your DOC and you are giving you body the time it needs to heal – this take a shit ton of energy so you are going to feel tired).
Do take care of your basic needs like eating and getting in plenty of fluids (this is the fuel your body needs to help heal).
If you can’t sleep or if the urges are super high - do something to distract yourself (i played a lot of games on my phone - kept my mind and hands busy).
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Hi Laura, how are you feeling today love?xx
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Better than yesterday ,going to isolate and start again with a bit more strenth this time around
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xoSo its Monday, i will be sober today, picking myself up slowly for my children
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And for you Laura it has to be for u too, you can do this i know you can, sending massive hugs, il be here if u need me xx
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Thankyou so much xx
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How are u feeling today Laura?xx