This is one of many day ones for me. I quit drinking in 2024 and had a streak of 20 months! I was very proud of myself. The curiosity of me drinking again crept up on me and 5 months ago I decided to let alcohol back into my life after a particularly Rough day. I also started dating again after 2 years of being single and that terrified me as well, so I thought maybe if I drink it would be easier to put myself out there. I thought I would be able to moderate with low alcohol beers making sure I had a grip on it and as time went on I found myself right back to drinking how I used to. It’s too much and making me sick. It’s causing me to have horrible hangovers while I care for my young son. It makes me a bad mom because I’m not being present enough for him. I regret letting it back in my life and I regret the selfish choices I make when I’m drinking like drunk driving or spending money I don’t have on booze. It’s like a leech that takes over my brain. Researching what alcohol does to the brain and body really helps me make the decision to stop again. But it’s hard getting past those cravings. I did it before and I know I can do it again! I think my mistake last time I quit was doing it alone and not having a community like this to share to. I know I’m not in this alone!
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Its a wonderful day for a day one!
Welcome @zazzimerlin im glad you found this awesome sober community. This place and aa keep me sober. Read around lots and reach out before picking up
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Warm welcome. 
Keep on reading and sharing, having support is crucial. You are not alone with the sure I can moderate this time thinking. Me included.
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Welcome Zazzi.
So glad you found us.
This is a wonderful supportive community. Have a good read around. Join in when you’re comfortable.