I struggle daily to stay sober. Due to death of my son at age 15. Due to fentnal over dose. I had for children now have three daughters left . Instead of losing one child I lost all four cause my others three blam me for his drug addiction . I just hope one day they see it wasn’t my fault . I started drugging when I was 15 . And I hate he did also . I beat my self up daily this the first time in yrs since I’ve tried to get clean but it’s been almost two months . Since my last use
Does things get any better??
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Sorry for your loss ,Things will get better if you want them too ,wish you well. maybe a meeting might help
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I am incredibly sorry for the loss of ur son. Having to go thru something like that is never ever easy 
Things do get better… but only if we work at it. I have learned overtime that i have a DAILY reprieve from my addiction. Meaning that i have to work on my recovery DAILY in order to keep it at bay. I do this by doing things that support my decision to be clean and sober. Wether that be meetings, journalling, prayer, daily reflections, helping another addict etc. It all helps me stay clean and then things do get better. Sometimes not as quickly as id like lol but they always do. Just want to welcome u to the community and hope u stick around. Congratulations on ur current clean time 
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I’m so glad you found this place! 
