Ive been sober for 11 days. Theres been some ups but a lot of downs. I dont like who i become when i drink, or the things that i do that make my wife feel neglected. Today has been an extremely hard day. I honestly cant remember the last time i was this down. Its so hard not to run back to the bottle.
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Hey Anthony
Welcome back and congrats on 11 days.
Hey. That first ten days are a bitch man. It’s hard. I know I never want to do that again. I got depressed too. Some days I couldn’t do shit.
I go to meetings now. AA or Al-anon. I find hope in those rooms. Something about being around people that know what I’m going through. I always leave feeling a little bit better. Even when I go to just listen.
Stick around here. The meme thread or nature or the check in thread helped me a lot. When I help another alcoholic it helps me stay sober.
Hang in there buddy. All you got to do is make it through today. And you win!
ODAAT.
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You kick ass for this post. Thank you
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"When all you have is a hammer, everything looks like a nail. " This saying really hit me (pun not intended but now pleased with it) when I first heard it. I was so used to commiserating, celebrating, intensifying, with alcohol I didn’t know what do to with myself without it. It really takes effort and time to learn new coping strategies or even how to just sit with uncomfortable feelings. At 11 days (congrats!
) your body is still very much in the early days of getting used to your new way of life. Keep going 
.
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When i got sober i ran to meetings maybe try that rather than running back to the drink wish you well
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I admire your ability to quit on your own. You’re being too hard on yourself, for example I was never able to just stop using.
I had to run out or get locked up. Now I don’t even have the desire to use/drink, but you are doing so well you don’t even realize it.
Good work keep it up
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