Coleman, I’m so glad you are here, friend. You’ve already gotten some great replies from some of the kindest people I’ve met virtually on the interwebs.
Was hospitalized in 2013 for a major depressive episode that included a suicide attempt. My depression/anxiety meds made it worse because of my alcohol consumption. Two years sober and depression/anxiety is gone. I owe this only slightly to my meds, but more credit to owed to my program/routine of recovery.