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Heyy @C-sun
I wish you a easy day today
Be easy on you
Today is my day off
I like to listen to linkin park and think of my coworker on my day off. He had a tough life but he does drive himself to work. He takes care of his mom and struggles everyday to make just a few dollars pay to bring home to keep a apartment over himself and his ill mom . Hes a really neat guy 
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That’s so big of you. When I still worked I didn’t spend my day off thinking much about my co-workers so that’s cool and selfless of you.
When I jam on music these days I listen to Tool and The Civil Wars depending on if my masculine or feminine energy is leading that day.
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Schizm is truly a masterpiece 
I had a mental health laps the other day. I had to take yesterday off for emergency meeting with my phyc dr
Im getting off of a very strong medicine for a safer medicine more easier medicine
My old med was making me tired and grumpy and it was just done working. That old med kept me safe in disastrous moments but my body addapted i think.
So sence i switched
I see my dr on video chat in a few weeks
Then
Again a few weeks later
Then i see her in person a few weeks later when the stich is ready and im concidered safley off of haldol and on a safer, easier med called abilify
I feel my dr listened to me and most importantly she trusts me
How im doing it is going down 5mg haldol and up 5mg abilify every few weeks then see her in person so she can anylize my bodys movments because abilify is more physically side effects though the side effects are similar.
I do however trust haldol helped me but my med team agreed its time to get off of it and on abilify
Lolol sorry for the ramble
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Titrating meds is hard. The waiting, the paranoia, the hypervigilance… Its good you have medical support that listens to you. Places I live will gaslight you about everything, wait for the inevitable crisis, maybe finally do what you asked months before, and then act like a hero for saving you from their calculated neglect.
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Believe it or not , what you say is true.
I have off topic opinions on that. Not all drs are bad. Not all phyc wards are bad; but human errors exists. Its a freaky thing to say. I had to pay SSI 2,500$ just to get off it. Apparently, a schizophrenic like myself has no grace pariod for a full time job. What if i didnt like my job. What if i broke down and lost my job. What if i didnt have the energy for long term work but i didnt know. I will never ever use mental health housing or SSI ever again; using it is a good way to be living dust.
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