Did your mood change?

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Happy Saturday, everyone! I’m at 21 days sober today, and I realized the other day that I haven’t had a single bad day since I started my “journey”.

I got confident, I’m cracking jokes with my family and laughing a lot, I just feel more outgoing, it’s as if my whole personality changed somehow. I feel… happier.

My SIL (yes, we’re besties again!) theorized that it’s because I take my meds more regularly now. I couldn’t take my antidepressants or mood regulating meds before bed after I’d been drinking, unless I felt like waking up in the middle of the night to throw up. (Lamictal is pretty potent.)

So now my mental health feels stable and a LOT better. I’m bipolar type 2 and have CPTSD.

I’m keeping my apartment clean, I’m pretty motivated now. I even started cleaning my room little by little, which I haven’t done since I was quarantined in the spring of 2022 because of covid. Going to bed feels better, and I sleep better. Not just because my room is getting tidy, but also because I don’t drink.

Idk, I just kinda love my life right now. I haven’t been social outside of my family, I haven’t been to the bar in three weeks. I kinda craved a beer yesterday, so I figured it’d be pretty unsafe to go out and socialize.

I’m gonna work on talking more to my friends again and start hanging out with them more. These past many years since I started struggling with alcohol (2019), I’ve felt pretty awkward hanging out for some reason, even though me and my childhood friends have been besties since before we could even walk.

I haven’t dared to go on a date with anyone without liquid courage, even in the daytime. Every single friend or boyfriend I’ve met in adulthood, has been at a bar or a party. And that’s the only time we’ve met up with each other. Alcohol kept the conversations easier, you know?

I just feel better overall. I haven’t felt like this since the year I turned 20, when I had the perfect year. I’m finally excited about things now.

I hope you all feel this way :heart:

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HUGE congratulations on 3 weeks sober! Its sooo great to hear that things are already improving for u.

I found this to be true for me too. It didnt happen for me as quickly as it did for u but I do feel this way about my life today (will be 4 years clean and sober in Feb 2026). I just found that being clean and sober allows me to have better relationships, a better mood (bcuz Im taking my memtal health meds), better productivity at my job and in doing day to day tasks, and Im thinking of others more and what I can do to improve their lives.

Im glad ur feeling optimistic about ur life :smiley:
Even in the hard moments of sobriety, life is STILL better sober than while high or drunk.

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Hi, im glad your feeling so much better :blush: i met my partner after a year of sobriety (he is sober too) we met online and talked for 9 months before actually meeting…im not gonna lie everything felt so nerve wracking meeting him without being able to have a drink…I literally couldn’t speak for the first hour lol but honestly it has been and still is the most fulfilling relationship ive ever had…built on honesty, presence, actual real love, keep doing what your doing for you and your life and when the relationships come they will be real and true, im very proud of you :clap: xx

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