I am still struggling heavily with my porn addiction… I am a girl and a Christian and I know what I’m doing wrong but I can’t seem to stop. And the things I watch disgust myself right after. In fact, the things I watch would disgust anyone. I just don’t know how to stop myself. I hate the things I’m doing. Any advice?
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Talking about it is a great first step! Do you have supports?
You know, the first thing that came to my mind was, ‘it’s ok’.
But it’s not ok. I am too dealing with porn addiction. To be truthfully honest right now, the only reason I am on this app at this exact moment replying to you is because I have a massive urge to break my streak.
As Bfunkbaby said above ^, you already did first step by coming here and attempting to deal with it. First step is acknowledgement and second step is the resolution of the problem.
I have relapsed many many times ever since I discovered that porn was the reason I was failing at life in every way possible. But each time I kept going longer and longer because each time I was training my brain to withdo w/out porn.
As they say, if you fail, get up and try again 
Relapsing isn’t the issue. Giving up is. So you failed, ok, next try go one day extra, 2 days, 3 days, oh you relapsed again, sit down and write you relapsed. Then get up and try again. Go longer this time.
It is hard. It is so so hard. But you need to understand what you’re fighting for and why. Why are you doing this? What is your goal?
Cold showers and Meditation help. But if it’s of any help, I believe in you. ^.^ Take it one day at a time. And never give up.
(Writing this to you has made me realize why I’m doing this. Thank you for reminding me and saving my streak)
Now get up and fight!
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It is impossible to do alone but with God and help from others you can. Look up SAA. There is help there as well.
I too am a christian female who has battled a porn addiction since age 9 when I was first exposed. It tortured my mind and soul constantly and I had no idea how closely it enabled/was connected to my alcoholism and vise versa. I personally had to get some intense prayer after fully surrendering myself to God like I never had before, in order to be free from it. I haven’t posted about that side of my journey yet, but it has been 35 days free from that porn addiction as well for me. Only thing I can attribute that to is a miracle. Believe me! Turn to the one, the only one you know can help. He will rescue you. I’m living proof. Get back up, dust off the filthy feelings and move forward with him. You’ve got this girl!
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I’m not trying to single you out or push something on you. But the way you speak I thought I should share that Celebrate Recovery might be a fit for you. It’s a religious 12 step group. Not trying to push anything on you
God works miracles in my life everyday. I had been using porn since I was ten. I knew it was wrong and couldn’t stop. I have surrendered myself completely to God. I also depend on this fellowship and the inspiration other here give me daily. I am so grateful now for being here. Continue to talk to others and pray. Miracles happen everyday.
This has been so helpful thank you for taking the time to write this out
Oh I don’t feel like your pushing it on me at all! I appreciate all the info and help I can get! I actually did attend one celebrate recovery meetings a few years ago but I wasn’t quite ready to change yet so I didn’t ever got back. I find my AA meetings EXTREMELY helpful, but it might be time to revisit celebrate…thanks for the suggestion!
thank you @Benedictine!
I went to CR before I was ready too. And not to knock CR I know for me AA is the raw thing I needed to hear at the beginning of my journey. I just added CR few months back. Still find A.A. to be more my thing but I am enjoying the positivity of CR so I will try them both 
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Yes, I agree with Chad. CR has really helped me. I think one reason I have continued to go more than NA is they seperate the males and females in our small groups. Not knocking NA but for me it seems to be a better fit.
I can see that as some people may have the wrong image of meetings after sober. Some may go to hook up… with wrong intentions of the group as we go for help n guidance not match.com haaaaa…
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