I pretty much fell completely off of this support group a month ago and fell back into drinking. I’m pretty upset with myself, got insanely drunk last night, and just did some very regretful things. It seems like I’ll take one step forward and two giant steps back. I’ll go strong for about a month, convince myself that I’ll have a few beers, and then bam! Right back into stupid habits. Sometimes I feel like giving up all together. The hangxiety is kicking very hard now, and I know that I’m going to feel awful for the next couple of days. I just feel paralyzed with anxiety. I just don’t know what to do.
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Recognize the importance of the decision you’re making to come right back here and commit to it again.
Great job!
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This is usually the best time to attend an AA meeting. It’s good to capitalize on the desperation you are feeling.
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You really gotta feel it in your bones that ‘a few beers’ will never happen for you.
Think of it logically. You are struggling to resist that first drink. So once you have a drink inside you, resisting the next drink will be exponentially more difficult. Resisting the first drink is the most important.
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That’s very true. I’m just really scared. It’s really hard for me. I am so much happier when I’m booze free. But there are moments where I act on impulse. It really sucks 
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Me too…FML
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We just gotta keep going. When we fall we gotta get back up.
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Thank you so much!
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I fell hard about 2.5 months ago and just getting back into it. The first few days sucked horrible with the shakes and not being able to talk or think clearly but I’m on day 9 and I’ve learned I have to keep myself super busy and productive throughout the day and then I wont even think about it. Don’t look back in regret…look foward and be proud you have the strength to try again…you can do this!
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Not what you have been doing, that is not working as your own experience tells you. What have you not been willing to do before? Will you do that now?
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I tried to land the sober plane about 10 times unsuccessfully now this time only finally it’s taking hold so relapses aren’t failure!! It’s just getting you to where you need to be to be strong enough to be done!!
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Thank you! I’m trying!
glad you’re back. recovery has been really important for my sobriety - actually working thru the the many complex feelings that i wanted to escape using alcohol. when i started my sobriety journey 85 days ago, i began to ask myself why i had been turning to alcohol even though i was fully aware that it was ruining me. what is ailing my soul so much that i would have rather knocked myself unconscious than feel that pain? this pain that i feel, deep within - i need to step in and take care of that. i’m not sure if this message applies to your experience but that’s been a big thing for me to make sobriety long-lasting and productive for my self-growth. actually feeling feelings. learning from them, forgiving myself, forgiving others, grieving, letting go . . . this is the real work, which is made possible by the daily act of not drinking.
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Thank you! Your words have definitely made an impression on me.
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yay i’m glad to hear that 
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Sometimes we fall when we feel our strongest i no that happened to me a lot so id get to a month sober then celebrate a month sober with a beer as surley as i went a month i could handle it 
as crazy as that sounds thats what addiction does it tells u lies what we believe, well done for coming back that alone tells you you want sobriety it just may take a few attempts dont give up on it ADAAT
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Thank you 
no matter how many tries it’ll take, I’m not giving up!
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