I joined this group a few days into my sobriety journey and have been quietly lurking. The couple of posts I did make had such lovely responses and really helped me through some tough moments, it was so appreciated
I am 10 days sober today and I’m in a strange space of awe, excitement, and fear. My relationship with alcohol is complicated, I was raised by a narcissistic alcoholic mother who was emotionally abusive and did a lot of damage I’ve never truly faced before. I always swore I’d never turn to alcohol.
But it didn’t take me long as I grew up to learn that I had an addict nature. I can get addicted to anything and have struggled long term with food addiction, pills, self harm, tobacco, caffeine, you name it. I managed to steer clear of alcohol until 2020, when it became my spouse and I’s coping mechanism through lockdowns.
Since then, I’ve felt trapped by drinking. To some, my consumption might not seem extreme but to me it was not the way I wanted to live. No matter how hard I kept trying though, quitting felt more and more impossible.
This post has already gotten long so I won’t go just now into how much therapeutic work I’ve done to finally get to this spot but it’s safe to say it’s been a long and difficult road. I’m here though, 10 days sober and I have hope that I’m ready to embrace new and healthier coping techniques now. One day at a time it feels easier and easier.
Thanks for reading my story, my job is one in the public that makes getting in person support difficult. The support of this community and many great recommendations for online groups has really been so helpful. I’m looking for any contacts who are interested in messaging and supporting one another, maybe people who resonant with my story.
Feel free to reach out and much blessings to you all