I almost caved yesterday…. Being jobless sucks. I got screwed on unemployment during covid so apparently I owe them almost $20,000 so can’t collect that. Stress got to me and I was at the point of saying this is stupid and falling right back into the old habit of escaping… but after thinking about the after feeling…. How I feel after with the self shaming and hate. The depression. The letdown I feel with myself I decided to hit up an online meeting instead. It felt fucking great. Drugs suck. Life’s cool.
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Alcohol doesnt help anything
Good job on staying sober 
Whats your next life move?
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Neither does meth. 
I need a job. That’s been my main focus for the past couple of months ever since I got let go from my last job of 5 years. 
Things are just not ok right now. It’s been really hard. I know once I get a job I will start to be ok. The stress of the bills and stuff will start to go away because I know I will have income coming in.
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Super proud of you for choosing recovery even during such a difficult time. It’s not easy to forge these new mental paths when we’re used to drinking or using to get through hard things. You’re doing it!
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Thank you! It’s not! I’m just so over it all I just want to live a normal life but it’s so easy chosing to use sometimes it just sucks.
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