I haven’t drank for 4.5 years and I’m so grateful with where my life is in recovery. That said I still have dreams where I choose to drink. My life then falls apart and I wake up saying a prayer of gratitude that it was just a dream after all.
Usually I’ll go months without having one of these dreams. Other times they happen almost weekly. Is there anything here for me to look into? Is this an unavoidable part of recovery?
5+ here, got one a week or so ago and was after seeing a movie at night that damn near every scene had someone drinking.
The dang memory is part of my disease & it’ll always be there. I choose today to not give those memories any real power, and simply move along. Happy & healthy as I should be.
Having them regularly as well, probably since my two year milestone is coming up. Also still a lot of processing of the things that happened in decades of addiction and the things before that. Always glad when I realize it was just a dream/nightmare. Discussed this lately in a meeting, it seems they are also common still with people with longer clean times. I try to embrace them, since for me they are an indication the processor is working and they entail growth for me
I have had these dreams so many times and I just assume they are premonitions of my failure. I’m starting at day 1 over again. The longest I have had since I started was almost a year clean and I was so ready to be that person celebrating many more years, but I screwed it up and I have panic attacks of the dreams in which I ruin my life in the same way I have in the past. Thank you for sharing, I miss my sober self and I am hoping this is the last time for real.