I always enjoyed having drinks, with some good and bad nights, but it all changed a year and a half ago when I lost my 18 year old son suddenly. The pain and grief has consumed me and alcohol became a way to get through the nights. But that’s the thing - I wasn’t giving myself a chance to really process my grief. I’m now committed to not drinking, but rather to allow myself to grieve for my beautiful boy gone far too soon. And to honor him by being a better version of myself.
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I am so very sorry for your loss. x
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I am very sorry for your loss. I cannot imagine what you are going through. You are strong and brave to realize that drinking is not helping you grieve and keeping your emotions stuck. I hope thru sobriety you can allow yourself to truly grieve your son and to learn to truly live again. Honoring him thru sobriety is a beautiful gift to yourself and his memory. I wish you much peace, sobriety and may your tears flow freely and thru you. 
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What a beautiful response. Thank you so much for your warmth and support.
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Thank you so much Linda
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I searched grief and found your post. I am an Alcoholic and lost my youngest son forever 15 in December 2022, very unexpectedly. I’m 10 days sober. I hope you are doing okay. Thanks for sharing this! Many hugs 
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I am so sorry to hear of yours son’s passing. Losing a child is devastating beyond words. I send you any strength i have. Big hugs.
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That’s what you need to do. I drank and took klonopin for awhile after my brother died and didn’t get to grieve the right way because of it
I am so very sorry for your loss:people_hugging:
Congrats on your double digits in sobriety. Stay strong Christine. We are here if you need to talk about your grief.
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