Just updating everyone. Thank you all for your support and suggestions. It all made me stop and think the last few days. I didn’t use (if only due to my stubbornness and refusing to reset my heroin countdown clock) and I haven’t drank since. I have a drug and alcohol assessment scheduled this afternoon… and a consult with a lawyer tomorrow.
Here’s a link to more of my story if anyone’s interested, and
Have any of you had to do the assessments before? I was intending to go into it with an honest and open conversation but I was told that they make a suggestion to the court about part of your treatment? If that’s the case I’d get put into treatment fooor sure (also I live in NC with some of the strictest DWI laws and automatically loose my license for 1 year regardless of anything) basically the clinic suggests to the court if I should just have to do a 16hr education course, the course with outpatient therapy, in patient etc. there’s like five levels I believe. And if I’m categorized as anything other than a 1 (which I’ll have to lie ALOT to be a 1) It’s way more difficult to get my license back for work.
I was a fairly high functioning addict and fortunate through my years of heroin abuse to have stayed out of trouble with the law aside from a few theft charges that were dropped. When I finally got clean I did it by calling my mom, telling her the truth, leaving my boyfriend of 7 yrs, moving in with my mom and going cold turkey. Hardest things I ever did were leave him, tell my mom and withdrawals all at once.
I didn’t attend detox or NA, I eventually started seeing a therapist for a few months but I kinda never stopped drinking… and I’ve known for awhile it was a problem. I think my mom was so angry at me because she thought I was ok. She didn’t talk to me until yesterday but she was def calmer. I think it’s hard for her to see my addictions as anything more than just weakness. I’ve been through a lot in my life and held my shit together (as far we people see) and it’s hard for her to think of me drinking as anything other than just being stupid.