The one thing I have founded that it is hard is the emotions. Man my emotions seem to be every where lol! From Tears To Laughter back to tears. Its weird feeling these things Sober not use to feeling hurt sober its just seems like damn when will my emotions come in check
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Hey Chief, for me… It was when I began to sit and both feel, understand, and begin to accept that those situations meant it was normal to feel how I was feeling.
It didn’t need to become more than what it needed to be, or be completely avoided and numbed.
I’m sitting here waiting for a phone call any moment now that my brother has succumbed to his brain tumour, and my emotions run wild at times from complete rage, to disappointment, to complete and utter sorrow. My breathing is almost to the state of a panic attack to which I’ve blacked out from in my past in a similar situation.
This time though… I can regain my composure after hurting, without letting it go beyond what’s necessary.
I’ve found that I have become more aware now that it was often when I bottled up my emotions and shoved them deep down inside that I erupted when it got to be too much.
When I recognize I am feeling an emotion I can’t otherwise explain reasoning for, I know it’s time to let go or release that pent up emotion. Breaking something meaningless like a plate purchased for a dollar, going for a run, screaming, or even crying uncontrollably. When I do this I feel my body completely reset now.
It feels great.