I’d say the hardest part of sobriety, is shedding all the tears I hid from myself. Expecting to just face them in another lifetime. Here I am balling with what it seems like an apple in my throat. Trying not to cry but I neeed to vent. In this sobriety I’ve cried more then I’ve ever cried all year, expressing how I feel is the most hardest thing I’ve ever done. Healing alone isn’t easy. You’re not alone.
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Hey Sam, I’m new to sobriety myself. Congratulations for being here! I’m with you, I feel like all I do is cry, mourning my old life. There was nothing wrong yet i ruined it all on the blink of an eye. So, I unfortunately along with the rest of us know how it is.
But, you’ve got this! Day by day. 
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Glad you’re here Sam.
Ya there’s a lot of crying in sobriety. Mine started after I finally got over the intense angry part. I was so angry I couldn’t drink like a normie. And gosh I tried and tried.
I start writing gratitude lists or journaling or even just thinking about something. And here come the tears. I was embracing it early on. Letting it flow. I couldn’t stop the tears anyway.
Sometimes during my quiet time in the morning before wifey gets up she’d see me ets all teared up and wonder what’s wrong with you? 
You’re not alone.
Let it out.
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Glad you are venting and letting your emotions out. We hold them so tightly when actively using. It is such a blessing and relief to be able to let go. 
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Thank you so much yes we do:heart:
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I love to journal all of my emotions and thoughts, literally my own therapist to myself❤️ glad I’m not alone thank you for your kind words!
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Hi sam totally get the emotional side of sobriety for years i pushed them down bottled it all up as in my family "men dont show emotions it a sign of weakness blah blah " since going sober ive been angry,tearful, happy and its been a challenge to except these emotions and ride them out but i can say life is easier when i do so if u need a cry have a cry just learn why and feel the emotion .
In therapy was told there are no bad emotions its how we deal with them that matters.
Good luck 
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Thank you!