Hey Zee, the first week is the hardest, so I’m proud of you that you did it.
I recommend using the thread called “checking in daily to maintain focus” for exactly that reason. Maintaining focus is one of the most important parts of sobriety since addiction will always try to sneak up on you.
The suggestion @MrsOdh made about finding an activity to replace drinking is really good. Not only does it keep you distracted from the drinking habit, a lot of activities are good for physical and mental health also.
For example running, cycling, dancing, working out and swimming are great for your physical health.
Drawing, cooking, crafts, writing and mindfulness are great examples of activities that are good for mental health since they all in a way are a form of meditation, because you focus on one thing.
But there’s also lots of activities that don’t necessarily improve health, but are fun to do none the less.
And like @MrsOdh said, informing your spouse about this can be very useful. I don’t say you have to do so immediately, but when you are ready for it.
Mindfulness is great for getting rid of shame and guilt. Those feelings are natural, but you shouldn’t have them for the rest of your life. With mindfulness you learn to let thoughts pass without paying much attention to them. From your auto-correct I assume you’re a fellow Dutchy, so I can recommend the VGZ mindfulness app.
This mind sound strange, but I recommend giving your addiction a name, I named mine Brutus. That way I know who I’m fighting and it makes me just a bit more aware of my addiction.
Reading on this forum a lot is also useful, because then you can read about similar experiences and discover for yourself that you are not alone in this fight. And if you have questions, feel free to ask. We always try to be supportive when it comes to feedback.
Try to avoid thinking about not drinking for the rest of your life. That makes recovery a lot harder. When I first stopped gaming and I thought about not gaming for the rest of my life I had small panic attacks and that thought still scares me, but when I think, I won’t game for today, I’m fine with that.
Don’t listen to your head. Your head has become a dick. Over time your mind will become a dick less and less, but it will always be a dick.
Don’t ever think that you can drink just one glass of wine, because honestly, that’s bullshit, you can’t. Not a single addict can and those who do drink moderately are lying to themselves.
If you ever get a lot of cravings play the tape. By that I mean thinking what if I drink again and predict the future. Will you be happy with yourself or will you hate yourself and feel shame, guilt and disgust?
I also recommend following the steps, for me they got rid of a big part of my guilt and shame.
I hope this helps out and keep up the good work