Hi Angie and welcome,
It might not seem that bad, but after you have stopped and reflected I think you will either realise how bad it has been or how bad it was going to get. So congratulations on taking the wonderful decision to stop using and drinking and going down a better route in life. Stick around and keep posting. Use the magnifying glass at the top to find out what other people have thought and done, or just ask. I am sure you will find this site useful. Here are also some resources available to you:
https://talkingsober.com/t/resources-for-our-recovery/52812
Best wishes on your journey! 
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