Everyday challenges, TW death

Yesterday I was woken up to a phone call it’s was my childhood best-friends mom and dad no clue how they got my number but they informed me that my bestfriend was involved in a car accident involving an 18-wheeler and didn’t survive this is the 3rd person in the last year that I’ve known whose passed away due to a car accident everywhere I go I see the number 22 I’m less than 3 weeks away from turning 22 and I can’t help to think are these signs? What does 22 mean? I’m honestly scared to see what the next year brings for me as a 22 year old everyone I know has either passed in the last year or has said I’m tired of people dying on me…… does 22 mean something bad? I honestly have no clue but I wake up everyday and tell myself one more day that’s all you gotta do is make it one more day the family I have are basically my sponsors no matter what they always try to help me stay sober no matter the occasion

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We call that “future tripping” and it really isn’t helpful, I think. Indeed living in today, for today is a much easier approach.
Friends will sadly die early, so will family members and folks we never even knew. I try to be thankful that my timeline and their timeline got to overlap. Focusing on that is what keeps fear where it belongs…in check.
Sorry for your loss Allen.

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