So all my friends and my therapist think im havibg a manic episode again which sucks cause im finally happy and just having a grand ol time living life and all of them are being so negative and telling me to take the mood stabilizers. For context i take antidepressants daily and the mood stabilizer in question is a low dose of seroquel that i take as needed for flashbacks/panic attacks. I was diagnosed with bipolar in 2017 after 2 suicide attempts only a month apart but in 2021 i was diagnosed with only depression amd ptsd and the doctor said the mania was a one off thing. Anyways im sleeping like 2-4 hours a night, barely eat, yet still have so much energy. I cant focus good and keep screwing up at work, i go on shopping sprees so much, im buying a piano tomorrow cause ive always wanted one, i asked my best friend to marry me cause i love yhem so so so much amd it just made sense but they said no and havent answered my calls and i did self harm last night, other than that were good. My therapist and i have a check in call tomorrow cause she wants me to checkbin to the psych ward but i dont wanna. Im thriving and everyone keeps trying to steal this from me. Im not bipolar i was undiagnosed and ive been good for years. Sorry just needed to vent cause im so angry at everyone for wanting me to not feel this awesome.
Idk some of the symptoms you describe sound like mania to me. I was diagnosed with bipolar type 2 in 2007. While it feels amazing…the lack of sleep, rushing thoughts, and excessive spending sound familiar. I also remember getting sober and feeling high on life. Maybe wait a week until you buy the piano. Talk with your therapist tomorrow.
I feel ya. I too have Chronic PTDS, Biploar and borderline personality disorder to name a few and I can remember going through those manic times in my life. Yes stay in touch with your Dr’s. They’ve finally after many year’s have just about stabilized me to the best of their ability. It helps now that I’m no longer refusing treatment. Getting locked up left me with little choice in the matter but it saved my life. Hope everything works out for you. I know it’s rough.
You self harmed and think you are ok? You post itself sounds manic…Get the help it is indicated you need.
I hope you and your therapist are able to talk and come up with something that’s acceptable to the two of you for you and your good health.
I’m sorry that you’re having trouble at work and making mistakes. That has to be frustrating
Please reread your own description of your life and think about how much that is what you want your life to be. Not sleeping, not eating, making mistakes, impulsivity, etc. Is that really thriving for you? Do you really think your loved ones and professionals want to ‘steal’ something from you? Take your time and discuss with professionals, get a second opinion, etc.
Amanda this totally sounds like a manic episode and I think you know that too otherwise why write out all the manic details! 
take your mood stabilisers and listen to your therapist and the ppl who know you.
Diagnoses aren’t set in stone, they are temporary concepts to help figure out strategies.
I have CPTSD. Have had it for many many years. Have been on and off meds and shrinks. Suicide attempts, various different clueless shrinks, impulsive bad decisions - somehow managed to survive through them all.
Looking back, I feel that I let other people affect me too much. I let their opinions and narrow mindsets, dictate my plans and actions. I have done many many things I am ashamed of. There are many things I have done that I have never told anyone - not even the shrinks. I have hurt many people in the process of trying to kill myself.
I think the solution is to not allow myself to be affected as much by other people and thier opinions. It helps me to assume that they do not exist.
I need a few close people, very few. Those few, I will care about. The others can exist or not. For me they are like NPCs in a game. For me they do not really matter and they do not really exist.
You must feel amazing and I totally get it you don’t want it to end. Yet end it must before some real damage is done. I am so sorry Amanda. 
With this I agree. If you’re really happy, you wouldn’t hurt yourself like this.
Sending hugs, thought. Please take care of your place where you harmed yourself. 
Update. Going to the hospital cause the self harm is getting worse and im starting to experience psychosis. So yea. Thanks everyone for calling me oit cause i needed that lol