My sister came over today. She showed me some pictures and videos of my son (I can’t have them sent to me directly, until I get my charges taken care of I’m not allowed any contact whatsoever)
He took his first steps. Without me there. It kills me that I’m missing out on so many firsts.
My lawyer said it would take a miracle to be allowed to see him by Christmas. His first birthday is in January.
I’m missing his first steps, first words, first time playing in the snow. First Christmas, first birthday…
And to top it all off, I have to go through this alone. I can’t see my parents because they’re my sons temporary caregivers. I can’t see my fiancé because of the NCO.
This should be our first Christmas as a family, instead it will be my first Christmas completely alone.
I’m on day 6. Tomorrow will be one week sober. This is the hardest period I have ever gone through, but I have to find a way to get through this. I will not let my son get lost in the system. I refuse to turn him into a statistic.
I just wish there was an easier way to get through this.
Sorry to hear that. Stay strong and hang in there. It just takes time and just think of how much better you will feel in the long run once its out of your system and you dont want it or need it anymore. I recommend listening to Kevin O’Hara on Alcohol Mastery on Youtube. He puts up videos everyday. Im not perfect and had to start over several times but I just made to 30 days alcohol free with the help of his videos and a strong commitment to change.
Thats must be tough on you @CandyKiss im sorry to hear about this situasion you are in . And thank you for sharing. You got something to fight for . For yourself as well . I do hope you find the strength make this. Belive in your self, maybe find someone Who will support you like AA or anything. I find this forum very supportive . Do whats the right thing for you i really hope you will have your kid back . Stay strong and focused again thank you for sharing