I like that. I dont think I could be a nurse. I was a nurses Aide in assisted living for about a year. I loved the job itself but couldnt stand the coworkers and management. I’m glad you’re working a job you like.
Apologies I know I’m probably gonna ramble bit but distraction is good and its what I need right now.
I start a new job next monday. My old job was terrible with communication and didnt pay me a fair wage so I decided to look for something new. I’ll be working as a mechanic for delivery vans and hopefully they’ll eventually train me on semis and trailers. I’m excited because its a $4.50 raise and I have a chance to actually learn mechanics vs doing the same old boring stuff at my last job where I had very little oppurtunity to learn.
It keeps me busy and distracted. It keeps me sitting in one spot because well I have to reply to someone or lemme just read one more post. Downside is I don’t go to bed because now I’m distracting myself but I’ll deal with that later. I’ve always ran off very little sleep because going to bed sucks. I have to lay there and not distract myself. Just let my thoughts happen until I fall asleep. That sounds like a recipe for disaster. Though I will have to fix this sleep schedule very soon here.
In the early days of quitting drinking I really focused like others have said on the things in my life that drinking threatened. The last night I drank I couldn’t tell you how I managed to drive home, I woke up the next morning with the worst hangover I ever had and still had to go to work. I hugged my wife that morning and promised her “never again.” I walked outside and examined my truck sure that I would find damage or evidence that I had hit someone or something. Then, a day later I came down with COVID and spent ten days laying in bed focused on thinking about my drinking problem, my motivation to quit, and I came to the realization I was either going to quit or drinking was going to ruin my life. I thought about what my life would be like without my wife and it was unbearable so I took it one day at a time and eventually I looked up and hit a milestone, then another, then another. There’s many tools out there to help you on your journey. Some people use meetings, some people read and educate themselves, you have to find your motivation first and then build your tool belt that best fits you in my opinion. It’s like I tell my athletes I coach, there’s some basic principles to abide by in baseball, but each athlete is a little different, what works for one of my guys doesn’t necessarily work for another. This community is a phenomenal place to connect and find what works for you
Hello. I am now semi rested and ready to start my day. I’m going to do my day sober. Plans include 8 hours of work in a laboratory playing with microbes and maybe a workout, maybe some TV. We’ll see how I feel after work.
I’ll throw in some time on here, good food, cuddles with my kitties and my husband and that’s my day. How are you doing?
In order to accomplish any goal, or achieve any objective, one must possess two things; the will to do so, and the means to do so.
You have the will, in that you have a desire to free yourself from alcohol. What you are lacking is the means.
Are you just trying to white-knuckle your way through this? Have you spoken with a medical professional, or sought other counseling? Have you considered a formal program, such as AA? This community is great, and I couldn’t have made it through the rough early part without it, but I was fully prepared to add meetings or IOP if I was still struggling. Maybe condsider this.
@Bootz no I haven’t tried a meeting. I don’t know about in person. Not really super comfortable around people.
@TrustyBird Other than tired I’ve been good so far. Really focusing on cleaning and organizing today. We had to move out for a few weeks due to renovations so I’m finally getting the place put back together. Not looking forward to tonight but I’ve decided not to think about it too much and to take it one minute at a time.
@Yoda-Stevie This is the first outside help that I’ve gotten. Im not to keen on meetings as right now I’m not ready to talk to my husband about it. I wouldn’t be able to do meetings without him knowing.
One day at a time. I’ve heard if you don’t do it for yourself you will relapse. Make sure you are doing this for you first and foremost. Sending you strength.
@ChildOfFate you’ve got this. This place is a loving and supportive place. I’ve got 39 days sober today. Work typically triggers me and I had the urge today but I did not. My mind and my body feel better without alcohol. My anxiety is all but gone. I also love opening up the app and seeing my progress on the counter. I’m generally a very competitive person and I like seeing the time increase.
Like others, I made a list of reasons my life would be better without alcohol. I made mine in an airport on about week 3. I worked on it for about an hour. I ended up with 75 reasons. I’ll share one:
Reason #15 - My son won’t cry about me anymore.
Yep, that one hurt to write at the time and to read later. It hurts less now because my son and I are in such a good place.
I failed left and right for years (decades?). I finally stuck to it, but I’m still very vigilant about staying sober. The list helped me. I wish you well!
Today is my day one so youre not alone in this
I also dont like the idea of meeting with people like AA or groups but I was told about a website called In The Rooms, I was told its like chat rooms (maybe online messaging chats too?) But you could always log in, black screen and just listen, be a fly on the wall to people who are going through the same thing we all are. That way you dont have to put yourself in an uncomfortable position but still feel the support around you. Hope youre holding in okay, stay strong, we’re all rooting for you!
